//-->
i just dunnoe why.
but suddenly.
things aint correct lah.
wen it suppose to be.
for example.
erms.
my pals relationship lah.
seriously.
im just confused.
abt wat my frens trully feels.
wat is there in them.
i noe its wrong for me to try and read ppls mind.
and try to figure up wat they trully feel in them lahx.
haish.
im realli confused lah.
seriously.
i dunnoe how to help them.
erms.
k.
as u guys noe.
my past relationship aint goin that well.
and erms.
i gave it all out.
try my best.
gave evrything he needs.
and try my best in making both sides happy.
but in the end.
im the one who's crumppled lah.
klah.
so.
for the fact that you guys are asking me.
how do u guys safe ur relationship.
seriously.
i donnt noe wat to say.
coz.
me myself.
i cant even safe my relationship lah.
lol!
klah.
seriously.
im confused.
as a pal.
i guess.
i shud have tried to make u feel better lah.
but im realli sorrie.
if i didnt.
why do i say so.
klah.
for the fact that i told you abt.
the meeting always.
will actualli make ur relationship much more worst.
its aint for all cases lah.
if both of you.
understands each other well enuff.
trust one another.
and didnt misuse the trust that ur partner gave you.
meeting often.
or not meeting often wont make a difference lah.
its how.
you guys approached it.
different ppl.
have different ways.
but too me.
follow ur heart.
gal.
giving him everything he wants.
all his deisres.
emrs.
i shall say.
its not the correct thinglah.
from experience.
it will just make you feel horrible.
wen he's no longer urs.
even though.
he may say.
trust him.
that he onli love you.
and no one can replace you.
for everything he wants from you.
he wud say he love you.
its all bull shit lah!
to get him all the things he wants.
i guess.
he's just trying to finish up ur money lah or just.
plainly taking advantage of you lohx!
ARGH!
im just stress lah.
talking abt all this!
haiyo...
klah.
erms.
about the touching2 part eh.
hahax..
im not at it gd enuff.
coz.
me sendiri lemah wen it comes to tat lah.
u cant imagine lah.
so yeah.
wen having the person you love beside you.
you will tend to show him how much u love him.
by such ways of kissing and holding hands.
by such ways of hugging and etc. etc.
im no one here to touch on tat.
forgive me.
so. u called me.
right after i left my frens to take 178.
which i was like kindda lost findin the busstop.
erms.
im kindda glad.
u called at the right tyme.
such tat.
wen im alone.
so..
there you are crying while talking at me.
erms.
i noe how it feels lah kies.
seriously.
i wud say.
get a grip even though u cant.
kies.
just try your best.
if u feel like taking painkiller.
just do.
as long.
dont overdose urself!
hahax. if not.
u shall let the history repeats itself.
by vomitting dry blood.
in the middle of the night!
lolX!!
klah gal.
just take care.
i hope.
the hugs i gave you just now.
and the hot choco i treat u.
shall make u better.
and make you cool down lah kies.
i dont feel like talking to you animore on this matter.
coz.
i noe.
its gonna hurt you lah.
past right!
hahax.
tke cre kies.
just stay strong.
i noe.
your much much more stronger than me lah.
but im sorrie.
i cant help saving ur relatinship.
coz.
i guess he made up his mind.
kindda wth lah.
but wat to do.
guys are guys.
but not all guys are evil lah.
one day.
shall he realise his mistake.
insyallah.
he'll return.
and shall appreciate you more.
insyallah.
we'll doa for the best kies.
amin.
whakakakax.
im pissed.
totally pissed today!
whakakakkakax.
shall start of with morning.
as usual.
i slept late.
5am to be sharp
raudha woke me up ard 8.30.
but i decided to sleep again.
hahax.
terbabas lah sampai pukol 9.30.
whakakax.
so.
erms.
not late for the meeting abt the tarian thinggy.
coz.
org yg chair meeting lambat jugak.
hahahax.
meeting went well lah.
tak ader cat fight or wat craps lah.
hahax.
everyone.
came to a point of agreement.
and both sides were happy lah.
alhamdullilah.
amin.
after that boys.
were off to thier kompang thinggy.
then.
me,arep,su and raudha.
makan kt FC3.
erms.
tak kecoh.
tak seriah maner lah.
lepas tu.
duduk2 kt mls sekajab b4 moving off to IMM.
the motive of me wanting to go to IMM is to find presents.
for my pals lah.
hahax.
tapi niat tak kesampaian!
whaduh!
klah.
otw balik tu.
kat call me.
crying.
and decided to meet her.
tot she need some hugs.
and someone to comfort lah.
seeing her now eh.
haish.
i just wish.
both of us.
sticks with our pendirian not to have any guy.
until finish poly.
we made tat agreement like.
in pri 6.
hahax.
lawaks ler.
seeing her.
der!
i feel like crying too.!!
whakakakax.
sakit tu eh.
hanya Allah sahaja lah yang tahu.
Insyallah.
semua ini akan ada hikmah.
i shall just wait and see.
kadang2 tu.
tak sabar jugak lah.
tot of doin wat ive been thinkin of doin.
kindda evil!!
whakakakkax.
but too bad.
im still nani.
im not as bad to make someone cry for 1 mth plus straight!!
klah.
otw nk balik tu.
kan 178 belakang lib.
(after calling din)!
whakakax.
so tot of disturbing ian kerja kt macD at JE!
hahax.
tapi bler call.
dier kater he tak kerja!
aper jek.
tak fun ler!!
hehe.
aru jek nk kacau.
hahax.
fren.
ure evil froggy with lots of craps!!
hahax!!
=))
sampai umah abt 8+!!!
argh!!
coz.
bbbual ngan kat kt lib.
bought two hot chocos!!
whakakax.
im loving every slip of it lah!
hahax.
sampai umah.
makan nasi.
mummy cook sambal tumis udang!!
whakakakkax.
i love it soo much ler!!
hahax.
der my fav.
is home cooked sambal tumis udang and mee goreng basah.
klau makan kt luar. i lioke mee hong kong!!
whakakkax.
my fav. foodies.
hehehhe.
muacks.
so yeah.
faizul invite all of us to his.
makan2 kt umah him. after his returning.
insyallah.
i shall try to make it lah.
bnyk benda seh this sat!
i shall die!
whakakkakax.
then.
got this msg.
tat kindda start me pissing off lah!
whakkakax.
i guess.
im no one impt lah.
as i say.
kata2 indah hanya kepalsuan semata-mata.
keindahan yang engkau lihat.
kerna kasih sayang.
kata dilupakan!
wth.
i shall ignore everything.
till u utd wat i really feel inside me.
tot u did.
coz u say u did.
i guess you dont.
shall go the way u want it to be.
shall follow.
the beat you are playing.
=))
my mood are goin hire wire.
shall stop now.
if not.
i will talk more rubbish.
diari. walauweh.
moving on to next book alreadi seh!
argh.
tat will be like my 17th!
argh.
wat craps did you write nani??
argh!!
guilt still running.
and the same question still poundering.
err!
i shall bring it up one day to the whole world.
shall dey hear my cries.
till then.
enuff said.
holdiing0nurhandstight
erms.
now.
my left eye.
arrr...
red.
im having sore eyes i guess.
argh!
its soo..
irritating lah.
sick.
erms.
=(
mummy reached home.
cook dinner for us.
then.
after mahgrib.
while eating.
i duscussed with her abt the job.
the cavana part time manager thinggy.
eventhough.
i filled up the form alreadi.
i still need to ask her permission.
and guess wat?
yup.
she didnt allow me.
she says tat.
i had enuff commitments alreadi.
argh!!
kindda true lah.
but err..
its money lah.
erms.
and peeps there lah.
they are just soo..
happening lohx.
haish.
so sad lah.
but its okay.
hope tat after poly.
i hope.
i still get the offer ar.
erms!!
i got the job becoz.
tom recommeneded me.
hahax.
he called me up.
and ask me.
whether am i up to it or not?
hahax.
its like.
i work there for only 3mths.
but im a all station worker lah.
sometimes.
i do the kitchen!
(ever cut my finger once)
i do the main counter.
sometimes. do the sausage counter.
(i hate tat station the most! coz i dont eat sausage! der!!)
sometimes. do the clean up.
and sometimes.
do the washing of dishes lah.
hahax.
so as to say.
i can do all the jobscope in cavana sembawang.
just name it!
whakakakkax.
i miss the cavana laksa lohx!
lol!!!
klah. so i guess.
i will not go on with the training.
tat will start next thursday!
whakakkax.
klah.
nvm.
perhaps another tyme.
no use. begging my mum.
coz. she told me. tats her final decision.
and i guess. she noes. wats best for me lah.
haish.
lagikpon.
my results. bukan nyer bagus sgt!
argh!!
kk.
concentrate on ur studies nani!!
erms!!
so yeah.
i watched dance floor.
erms. wasnt i supposed to go silat today?
wanted to. but i cant.
err!
hope tat the sore eyes wont get worst!
argh!!
im gonna cry lah.
klah.
dance floor.
i cud say that.
erms.
all 10 teams did well lah.
erms.
something caught my right eye!
hahax.
wan from the break force crew.
he's kindda cute right? dont u think so?
hahax.
then. amsyar from styles from beyond pon cute!!
hahax.
like the hairs!
whakakkakax
JDI and fantasticfour! argh... all cute lah.
hahax.
blueks!
love them loads!!
whakakkakax.
ouhyar.
there's this one phrase tat i think kindda kewl.
"outshine the sun you can!"
from the styles from beyond!
true lah guys.
u guys rocks my socks!!
wohoo!!
then. i watch.
danielle.
whakkakakax.
kewl.
and touching!
whakakkakax.
shamil and epin rocks lah!!
hahax.
great acting lah guys.!
wohooo!!
im seriously sick lah.
cannot tahan lohx.
head veri the heavy lah!!
argh!
wanna cry!!
sore eyes are very the itchy lah!!
argh!!!
sick sick sick!!
wth!!
cant sleep!!
will feel like crying!!
argh!!
i shall stop watever i crapp doin today.
i shall go on with the stuffs that ive been thinking these few days lah kies.
let be frankly in my post!
to my dear sis tat i shall not name you here.
u asked me.
can ur relationship last wen u are now feeling bored with the guy u are with now?
gal. seriously. i think ure crapping!
seriously.
u are being stupid lah!
the guy is there loving u soo much.
and now.
u are bored with him!
wth lah gal!!
be happy coz.
there are at least a guy. who still loves you.
who appreciate ur love!
love dont get bored.
if it comes from ur heart.
he may not noe how to entertain you.
he may not have tyme to meet u always.
and spent tyme with you.
you noe wat?
i think.
tats the best way.
for a relationship to last!
why?
emms.
the more you dont meet.
the lesser that both of you will quarrel and start to have second tots abt each other!
tat will last long.
i noe.
u will get bored.
and you will longed for him.
but dont you think.
from there.
you noe.
how much the person realli mean to you.
i noe.
its not boredom dear.
its just the feeling of loneliness.
when he's not there beside you.
but be glad.
that even when he's far away from you.
in his heart.
ure the princess.
ure the gal. he love.
gal. i noe. he didnt gave you a birthday present for your 18th birthday.
im realli sorrie to hear tat.
but be glad.
that u still have his love.
maybe.
he have his own reasons for not getting for you.
but.
i noe.
his love.
does not measure by the stuff he gets for you.
but the sincerity from the heart.
be glad.
that he loves you soooo much.
and have never tot of another relationship.
have never ever tot to be with another gal except you.
i believe tat both of you can last long.
promise me.
tat all the ups and downs u guys go thru.
will make ur relationship. a stronger one aiytes.
i love u sis.
just take cre.
=)
to the person whom this may concern you.
yeah.
wen we are sick.
we longed to have the person we love to be beside us.
to belai us.
but too bad.
they are not there wen we need them.
i understand ur feeling my dear fren.
but dont you think.
its goin too fast?
i think.
u shall not burden this in ur mind.
take things slow and steady.
it wud be a much better position for both of you.
i noe.
it come without you noticing it.
but.
u got to think abt the pros and cons.
but one thing.
just remember.
watever ur decision is.
make sure.
it will make you happy.
and be glad of.
dont think too much abt others feelings.
but just consider the effects of tat to others.
ill just pray for the best.
May Allah bless the decisions you make.
Insyallah.
im seriously.
argh!!
sick.
i guess.
ive been thinking too much.
tiring myself too much too.
havent been getting enuff rest this few days.
ive been doin too much things lah.
argh!!
feelings have been a roller coaster to me.
up and down. down and up.
argh!!
now i realli feel like goin to escape theme park!!
whakakakakau!!
erms.
i just need more tyme for myself lah.
argh.
competition this saturday.
and im not sure am i up to it or not.
if i were to back out last minute.
i shall ask nor atikah to replace me.
insyallah.
she will do us nur-ians proud.
im just not ready and prepare lah!
i shall blame myself too lah.
i didnt put it as a priority.
coz. erms. im not confident lah!!
argh!!!
kk.
not low self estemmmm
but just.
erms.
im a freako gal lah.
kk.
shall not elaborate on tat!
whakakkax.
kk.
but.
i shall try.
on fiday.
if its not gd.
i shall pass it to someone better kies!
can?
hmmms.
insyallah.
amin.
every steps i made
i noe.
Allah is there to protect me.
im not afraid.
coz i did nothing wrong.
i noe.
ill be happy once again.
i just got to grow thru all this with a strong heart.
love does not measure the physical stuffs u made.
the physically it affects you.
but how emotionally it hurts you.
of course.
all the physical things you've done is a maksiat.
but how do you overcome the urge of you doin it?
its difficult.
i noe.
wen a gerl and a guy are together.
its easy for you to say.
tat.
"biler aku ader matair. aku tak kan ....."
but then.
its different.
wen u actualli do have one.
i guess.
it stil hurts me.
and the feeling of guilt is still in me.
but im just wondering.
how can he forgets it soo easily?
erms.
=(
for a man tat ive love.
its not easy for me to get a replacement.
a love is soo precious.
tat you have to go thru hell.
to forget the person u realli love.
all the promises you made towards each other.
a love is just not the words you utter from ur mouth.
but the sincerity it comes from ur heart.
i shall keep the sincerity forever.
till.
it shines again.
insyallah.
=)
*insan sejati, tidak merebut cinta manusia.
tetapi, merebut kasih Illahi.
insan sejati, tidak merampas cinta manusia.
tetapi, menakluki cinta Illahi.
insan sejati akan kembalikan cinta manusia yg bukan miliknya.
tetapi, menggengam cinta Illahi yang tiada bandingannya.
enuff said.
holdiing0nurhandstight
hahahax.kk.
i back.
i dunnoe why.
but im in the mood of blogging.
klah.
wat actualli happened today?
erms.
kk.
monday nite was the amazing race all stars.
sooooooo sad that rob and amber were the last team.
and were eliminated.
after a all three straight came 1st to the pit stop.
haish.
sad leh.
hehehe.
they were the sweetest couples in the amazing race lohx!
haish.
nvm.
=P
tuesday, 13.03.2007
whakakkkax.
i dream abt erm.
sheesha.
hahax.
i was taking erms.
apple with mint.
whakakakax.
i finished up the whole bottle.
woah.
was i high!
hahax.
i love apple lah.
but my uncle says that grape with mint is much more nicer!
erms.
one day i shall try.
whakakax
klah.
erm. becoz of tat dream.
and another dream.
i was late.
bangun lambat giler lohx.
janji dgn budak2.
pukol 10.
skali.
nani yg bangun pukol 10.
hahax.
lawaks.
i rushed.
kluar umah pukol 10.30.
sampai pukol 11.30.
hahax.
rabakz lohx.
start of main bola lah.
kindda mendak.
yg datang gerls cumer.
erms.
4 org jek.
hahahx.
i was kindda mad.
kindda bingit too ar.
shall not elaborate on tat.
so.
to ease the kebingitan.
i decided to erms.
drink slurpee!
whakakakax.
boys join in.
by playing streetsoccer beside our court.
yussimonsibengs.
help me on my lappy.
but then bro.
erms.
masih samer ler.
haiya!
still got problem lah!
haiya.
vista really making me mad lohx.
su,din and faan.
came back from muis.
with great news!
whooo!!
erms.
i miss su loads.
hahax.
hugs her loads!!
whakakkaax.
she's sick after the GPA thinggy.
glad. tat she's getting better lohx!
hahax.
din came. and kutuk-ing my lappy.
so as hadi.
hahax.
su kater. bab dorang jealous!
hahax.
wohoo!!
whakakakkax.
merepeks lah korang nie.
but glad lah.
i got frens like you guys.
hahax.
lawaks!!!
klah.
lepas tukar baju semuer.
the boys.
go train on thier kompang.
hmms
boleh tahan ar
tapi masih berterabur lar.
hahax.
lawaks.
then me and raudha.
go main hujan.
whakakax.
tak ader kerja.
erms.
arep was sick.
erms...
shivering quite badly.
haish.
hope u get better soon k bro.
rest loads.
erms.
abt 6+ like tat.
send arep home.
by cab.
then.
i also went home by cab.
ngantok beb!
hahax.
rest well aiytes.
erm.
balik umah.
mummy cook dalcah for me.
whakakakx.
i love it lah.
but maser makan tu.
i was sneezing all the way.
haish.
bingitz beb!
and my temperature yesterday was.
erms.
38 degree?
whakakakax.
im having fever,
so most probably.
im not goin silat tomolo.
mummy pon tak kasi kluar.
argh!
coz.
im sick!
whakakakx.
wednesday was nothing lah.
just rest my nosey.
and exploring my new lappy!
whakakkakax.
loving it!
wohoo!!
currently.
im feeling okay.
nothing stress me out.
except for the miss shasha who keep on pissing me off!
haish.
bingitzz lohx.
erms.
and sha.
whoa.
im like so happy tat ure coming SP!
wohoo!
gonna have loads of fun with you lah.
hahhax.
cant wait gal.
to spent our tyme together like we used too.
haish.
i miss someone's hug badly lah.
erms.
argh!!!
wanna shout out load!
whakakakakax.
saturday.
too much things coming up on tat day.
can i go for all the things?
erms?
frens birthday this month.
erm.
yan,ama and sha!
whakakkakax.
shall celebrate everything in one day i guess!
whakakakkax.
klah.
im currently!
out of things to blog lah.
whakakkakax.
later at night.
i shall let go of my feelings.
once i arrange the words aiytes.
till then.
enuff said.
-nani-
holdiing0nurhandstight
currently im like soo lazy to update.
coz.
im realli tired.
der!!!
why?
erm.
hahhaax.
klah
started off.
with the thursday nite not sleeping.
then.
kan petang tu.
nani gie madrasah al-irsyad.
tolong dorang for the pri 6 motivation camp.
wohooo..
so.
how does it go?
hahahx.
nani siap2 dalam pukol 2 gitu.
pack bag and all the craps.
goin to meet raudha and faan kt newton pukol 3.30pm.
kt newton.
then.
janji hadi.
pukol 2.20 ar.
hahahax.
so.
i was like calling my mum.
asking her some stuff.
and al last.
i end up crying.
while waiting for hadi to muncul under my blok.
i was talking to my mum.
n i cried.
coz.
same topic.
over and over again.
haish.
penat and bingit at the same time lah.
but im glad now.
everything stops.
insyallah.
meet my mum first b4 goin to newton.
talk to her for awhile.
then headed to newton to join hadi and raudha.
waited for faan till 3.45 like tat.
tapi he tak muncul2.
ruper nyer masih kt umah.
we went first.
then. otw.
terjumpe plak kawan hadi yang tadik we talk abt.
whakakaakax.
he's kindda sad lah.
but.
erms.
okay2 lah bro eh??
then.
sampai jek skolah.
we duduk skajab.
then join in the introduction of the camp ar.
hahax.
dgr kan ajek.
then.
got this two boys lah.
come to hadi.
abang. leh teman gie toilet tak.
hahax.
faham2 jek lah kies.
we went ahead with the games.
took pics with them.
they kecoh giler maut lah.
especialli my grp.
coz.
dorang semuer hyper active.
whakakakax.
my grp kena pecah into other grps
coz.
erm games tak cukop station.
so.
sad lah.
then i help nisa with her grp.
yup2.
hahax.
tat night.
erm.
me and raudha tot of joining the boys gie makan kt newton circle lah.
lapar beb!
haiyo.
tapi tak dikasi kluar.
so.
erm.
we waited for the boys to bring for us food.
sambil tu.
kiter bbual lah crapz.
hahax.
sambil makan kacang.
yummy!
hehehehe.
hadi and faan came back with roti john.
me and raudha share together.
then. the guys left us.
coz of menghormati protocol madrasah.
then.
me and raudha were asked to moved away from the bawah pokok nyer tempat duduk.
hahax.
we went to the kanteen.
the kanteen mcm mendak ar.
so we decided to sleep instead.
hahax.
next morning.
qiyam.
then.
games.
at abt 10.30 we end everything.
me got chocos.
hahax.
cert too.
whee..
overall.
i enjoy my tyme there.
jadik kakak dorang.
fun lah.
im glad.
didnt regret at all lohx!
thanks raudha!
=))
P.S.:: everyone especialli the other facis tot im one of the campers. coz im short! argh!! kk. then erm. they all the pri 6 semuer tinggi2 ar. ader yg ketot2 jugak ar.
but overall. im glad to be with them.
jadik kak nani lah.
kak nina lah.
macam2 namer dorang kasi!!
hahahax.
went home.
slept for abt 1 hr??
hahax.
then mummy ajak me.
go IT fair!
whakakakax.
went there with aims lah.
me.
laptop.
while mummy wants her zen creative neoon.
hahax
mummy drives.
so all the way.
she was worried tak ader car park.
hahax.
we didnt get lost at all!
was shocked!
hahax.
then.
erms.
parked car at pan pacific hotel!
hahax.
sampai jek kt suntec convention centre.
sesak seh!
haiyo.
but manage to go home happily with one lappy(acer) and one zen creative neoon!
wanted tp check out more stuffs.
but erm.
too packed ar.
so decided to go home.
im also tired lah.
three days.
with 4 hrs sleep.
argh!!
reached home.
erm.
did some stuff to new lappy.
then.
im off to bed!
too tired!
next day.
ader ugama lagik!
then
erm.
sunday.
hahax.
kk.
sunday.
after ugama.
me go teman mummy go belanje brg2 dapur.
then.
off i went for the friendly netball match.
who came down?
erms.
falina
nani
ama
syiks
hazimah
shakina
nabila
nabiha
hahax.
game was great lah.
walaupon kiter kalah.
der.
murni's team was like semua.
tinggi2.
haiyo.
penat tau kejar2 dorang.
but overall.
i enjoy myself ar.
went straight home with falina.
while the silat gals went for the silat championship.
nasif and hazimah went for the IT fair.
hahax.
last day mah.
hahahax.
slept ard erms.
2am.
so erm.
leh lah eh.
cukop2 tido!!
hahax.
monday.
actualli supposed to go for ice skating with mls peeps.
sklai.
cancle.
haiyo.
korang eh.
so nani aper lagik.
duduk umah.
tido lah puas2.
nie pon aru bangun tido petang!
hahax.
sedap sikit badan.
bsok ader bola lagik.
so kena store energy.
hehehe.
wed.
silat!
hahax.
gonna enjoy every minute of my life now.
hahahhax.
klah.
verrie2 the lazy to update animore.
later klau malam rajin.
ill update more kies.
hahax.
thanks guys.
muacks.
till then.
enuff said.
=))
holdiing0nurhandstight
im now totally cooled after watever craps happened yesterday nite.
thanks.
ain,yus,raudha and ian.
for making me feel better and make me think.
whakakakax.
klah.
btol kater korang.
erm.
i shall just ignore all this craps.
hahax.
so yeah...
chears ppl!!
=P =))
but hey.
im still worried.
for FOC..
help me aiytes.
u noe.wat i noe.
haiyo.
glad to have u guys ar!
seriously.!!
thank guys.
=P
erm.
kk.
yesterday nite.
i watched. erm. VCD arep : Cinta.
verri2 the touching lah.
i cried part the.
"a little gal taught me, to love is to let go!"
argh.
touched deep into me.
then.
tgk dancefloor results.
argh.
not satisfy with the results lah.
den again.
all the best aiytes.
fantasticfour all the way kies.
hehehhee.
=P
then.
raudha msged me.
asked me.
whether nk tolong jadik faci/helper for.
mad. irsyad nyer orentation camp for pri 6.
to think again.
i cant go silat.
kaki dah tk leh tendang.
klau tendang. mesti nangis nyer.
then.
camp. tak rough sgt ar.
so yeah.
im goin for the camp.
hahax.
its like.
today.
(fri)4pm-(sat)10.30am
wohoo. im gonna love it.
yg pergi.
me,faan and raudha.
yus-si and hadi POWER. masih pending.
leceh lah kengkorangz!
hahahax.
then. erm.
tahu lah aper jadik maser nie.
darah up giler to the max ar.
but nvm.
i were still okie.
cumer.
tangisan sikit jek.
tak lah sampai meraung yer.
haisyo.
chat with ain,raudha and yus-si conferencing.
hahax.
yus-si got new name.
yussimonsibengs.
hahahx.
faham2 lah eh.
klau tk faham.
kengkorangz memang slow!
wahduh!!
leceh dokz.
then. chat ngan ian.
as usual.
he's being lame.
24 hrs.
but cant deny.
he did chear me up lar.
thanks froggy!!
=P
hahax.
since i cant sleep the whole night.
i watched two movies.
hindi-s.
hahhax!!
kal ho na ho.
and phil bil di hil hindustani.
hahahax.
kal ho na ho.
i cried da very much.
sampai my mum terbangun tido.
hahahax.
touching ler.
haiyo.
nani2.
hahax.
sampai lah subuh.
tak tido.
movie marathon lah nie.
hahax.
then.
skali.
nk solat.
ikan goldfish ku plak buat hal.
mater dier sakit.
kena infection.
got this one layer of disgusting white2 stuff.
at the eye.
so da scary ler.
then.
cepat2.
tukar dier kt smaller tank.
for rescue mission.
hahahax.
letak chlorine to neutralise the water.
then.
tunggu jab.
letak ubat dier.
two types.
one for fish headache.(hahahax.)
and another one for white spores.
hahax.
waiting for the whity tingy to peel off.
they leh pindah alek.
mummy planning to wash the tank.
this sunday?
argh!!
malas!
tapi tak per.
dari ikan2 kesayangan nani mati.
ill wash it!
whakakakakx.
=))
k. then.
makan breakfast ar.
aleh2.
chest pain seh.
cramp sakit giler.
nk breathe susah.
didnt tell my mum.
coz.
i noe wat it is.
i got the med alreadi at home also.
its stress also called as hypertension!
whaduh.
ubat dier eh.
besar2.
macam gula2 mentos.
whakakakakx.
tapi.
mentos much more nicer ler.
hahax.
rest for a while.
then.
bler can breathe like normal.
i went online.
chat ngan sha!
hahax.
she's being lame.
and yet.
we still talk abt the same stuff.
advise each other this and that.
laugh on some matters.
and then.
erm!
she left me!
pergie johore!!
whakakakkakax.
=P
thanks gal.
mummy called.
argh!
kak samnah.
ader ipod nano baru!
whaduh!
bingitz seh.
nvm.
coz.
yesterday.
me and mummy supposed to follow.
kak nura and kak samnah.
go IT fair kt suntec.
tapi.
kerna kaki ku yang tengah nk patah nie.
tak jadik.
so wen tadik.
mummy gie kerja.
mummy hear got loads of gd stuff. and cheap.
whkakakakx. so... she cant wait to go.
but too bad.
i cant follow.
klau tk.
nani dah borong dah bnyk benda.
hahahax.
but mummy wants to check out lappy for me.
she noes.
i need one sooo much!!
argh.
kies.
also.
web cam.
and ipod for me.
wud be prefered.
the one with video!
wohoo!
tgk lah.
aper yg nani akan dapat bler balik camp nanti kies.
cant wait to see wat she buying for me ar!!
argh!!!
klah.
totally.
mood percentage. erm.
85%
yg lagik 15% tu.
bab perut nani ngah sakit.
i think.
becoz.
i ate too much egg mayo sandwich tadik pagi.
with.
erm.
FnN orange the gassy ones.?
hahahax.
nasib ko lah nani.
but im like totally trying to gain fat!
why?
erm.
coz.
its worrying me.
i found out that i dont have enuff fat to help me.
in case of. *no more food/food too expensive*
*touch wood. touch wood*
wahduh.
my percentage fat is onli 10.2!
while. normal female shud have. erm. 19-25%
argh!
kies.
im gonna eat more chocos.!
whakakakakx.
=P
klah ppl.
mlm nie.
jgn carik nani on msn kies.
klau rindu.
katerkan rindu.
msged ler nani.
ader hp buat aper kan?
btw.
my msges kan.
naik tinggi giler.
macam nani nie.
ader guy plak.
banyk seh i send msg this month!
wahduh.
mintak2kan.
tk more than 10 bucks.
klau tk.
kenek marah ler.
haiyo...
hahahax.
=P
klah ppl.
im gonna miss you guys.
and do tags and reply me.
at blogspot and multiply respectively aiytes.
ayang korang semuer!
*cayer atau tidak.
nani miss silat.
tapi. aperkan daya.
tak mampu.
wahduh.
sakit nyer. tak tahan seh!
till the.
enuff said i guess!
toddles.
holdiing0nurhandstight
wohoo.
im back after a 4 days of MIA-in..
hahhax.
maap ler.
hehehhe.
klah.
monday was kindda nothing ar.
shud supposed be goin to ice skating with shakilla,falina and rashida.
but i end up at administrative office in my sec sch.
argh!
why?
erm.
coz of my pass years achivements.
they kindda lost it.
and dont have a copy of my cca card.
sedih eh.
haiyo.
nasib baik.
i still have mine.
so dorang photocopy alek lah.
hahahax.
then after dat.
stay at home.
relaxs.
sleep.
and then.
talk to my cousin.
she came to my house.
to erm.
accompany me?
der.
tuesday?
i was late. star karats bangat!
shud meet the gals at 11am. i reached at. erm. 12.30pm?
hahahax.
erm. morning was soccer.
than.
netball.
hahax.
was sooo damn freaking tired lar.
hurt my neck.
wen i fell down.
body first. neck was like patah-ing.
argh!
sakit seh.
balik?
tutoring my cousin.
argh.
she got maths and chem test the next day.
=P
whakakakakax. but half of the tyme.
i was like...
how u n saif? hahahhaax.
=P
received results.
at 12.36am.
hahax.
was so happy ar.
didnt expect it at all.
der!
coz.
i didnt study.
and erm.
i onli did a few qns for engineering maths.
was like did.
4qns out of 19qns.
was i mad?
yup.
i even cried after the paper.
infront of yus and ain.
i was so scared.
im gonna fail tat paper.
but i didnt.
io chem too!
hahahax.
so the unexpected!
wohoo!!
=))
happy happy me.
mummy gonna treat me!
wohoo.
swensens?
yup2.
hahhahax.
1 earthquake for me.
and yup2.
gonna get my adidas bag.
and the nike shoe.
lovin myself soo much.!
=P
wednesday?
erm.
again.
i was star karats.
hahax.
erm.
11am-12.30am aru sampai.
hahax.
played soccer with the boys.
all the gals.
me,adaw,azlin and falina. with faan and yan in our team.
against.
hadi,din and wak.
hahax.
we won.
hahax
10-8!!
buat malu lah korang.
tak sangka.
da gals power2.
hahax.
adaw score 2 gols.
me score 2 gols.
azlin score a hat-trick.
yan score 1 gols.
and faan score 2 gols.
im soo happy with the achivements.
go gals.
and falina.
ure a great defender!
hahax.
im soo cant wait.
to be with the full gals team.
mintak2kan satu hari.
semua dapat turon.
and we play a full game together.
wohoo.
gonna be sooo much fun2!!
after soccer.
some go and rest.
but with some energy left.
and even after.
kaki ku dah luka.
bab jatuh macam nangka busuk.
hahaax.
me,syiks,falina and raudha played netball.
whakakakakx.
syiks is my opponent.
while raudha is falina opponent.
(me and falina same team ler)
hahax.
syiks was like soo tall for me lar.
she was like blocking me the whole time.
susah seh nk dapatkan bola.
but.
hahax.
great game lah gals.
im lovin u gals.
more and more.
hahax!
muacks.
hehhee.
(im glad syiks turon!!=P)
then. erm. rest skejab kt mls.
then turon.
makan.
hahax.
then. erm.
rehat jab.
was thinking.
to go or not to go fo silat.
currently.
my right leg. aint at its optimum condition.
so yeah.
pass my tudung to su.
since she dont have a black tudong with her.
then.
stupid of me.
to go gym.
hahax.
went with raudha.
hahax.
tot of doin upper body workout.
but i end up.
doin legs too.
argh.
tat machine.
called me.
"commom nani. come here. use me. use me!"
argh.
soo da argh!!
so yeah.
did some legs workout.
and dang!
was its soo painful.
yang tadik biler ama urut.
makin sakit seh.
haish.
and there goes another dodolz.
she went to do.
the sit ups.!
argh!
my neck was like macam nk patah.
then.
lepas buat 20 sit ups.
makin sakit dok!
haish.
aper lah nasib ko nani.
erm
left early.
went out of the gym.
much more early than raudha.
dah tak tahan sakit!
hahahax.
then.
lepas tu.
tgk silat training.
sparring!
wahduh.
erm.
im soo gonna do tat one day.
erm.
n i also wanted to lepaskan geram kt Mr. V. yesterday.
but then again.
due to my leggy.
i cant.
haish..
currently.
right leg.
bengkak.
right knee.
luka.
left thigh.
muscle cramp!
hahahax.
neck.
waiting for it to patah.
hahax.
sakit dokz.!
so then.
alek umah makan.
watched CSI.
sleep!
tak tahan seh.
haish.
rest my neck on the pillow.
untuk org2 tua.
tat my mum bought for my grandpa.
hahax.
best ar tido.
but pagi.
end up.
batal tu kt kaki.
my neck rested on baby taz!
whakakakkax.
=P
wat dreams did i have for the past 3 nights?
same person.
onli.
different places and different situations.
bingit seh!
haish.
macam nk tampar jek tau muker nani nie.
ataupon.
jgn tido. selama2nyer.
so tak mimpi.
tk sakit hati.
sedangkan.
mimpi itu hanya permainan pikiran kan!
aiyooooooo!!!
P.s.:: bukan aku terasa. tapi bukakkah itu fact? klau malas nk bbual. jgn bbual. get a life lar gal. aku tak kacau.
dier plak kacau aku. bingitz. nvm. wat goes ard. comes ard. ingat tu! =P
im kind of totally breakdown in myself.
why.
im here trying to listen to everyone.
feelings and crapz.
on how they feel.
argh!
when. sometimes. i dont even noe wat i feel.
=P
pathetic me.
but then again. im kindda happy noe lar.
im here to listen to all ur craps.
but then.
wen i heard all this.
wen i tried to help to solve all this.
im the one who is breaking down.
i feel soo weak in me.
i sometimes.
remembered abt the past.
the past that hurts too much.
i sometimes. argh!
macam nk pekik tau!!
okies.
nani.
stooOp it with ur feelings.
kk.
erm.
firstly to sha.
gal. hold a grip of ur life.
u gotta be strong.
even if u and him were to be in the same sch.
same building.
u gotta have a grip.
noe ur objectives.
ure coming to SP.
to gain knowledge.
not becoz of him.
pls sha.
relaxz.
dont get too emotional too much aiytes.
im here if you need me.
im sure will.
since. erm.
im also experiencing the same thingy?
dont you think so?
so yeah.
just stay strong.
even wen u think ure weak.
=P
to raudha.
im glad.
ure realli doing well.
hope u continue on like this.
hope. u will.
i realli wish.
you to be the old you.
the one. that everyone loves to be with.
we will help each other up.
kies.
i promise.
=P
to ain.
im sorrie.
if tat nite. i sound so. the. argh.
cranky.
erm.
i was sooo hooked to my book lah gal.
and i tot u didnt get the main motive of me wanting to have the gals soccer team.
sorrie aiytes.
i didnt noe.
ure trying to help someone.
maap kan nani aiytes.
=P
to sulalalalla!
u noe wat i noe.
stay strong aiytes.
im here for you!
to listen to all ur crapz.
always.
argh!!
to ama..
hahahx.
gal.
im here!
for you.
hahax
*winks*
lame...
=P
to syiks.
hey gal.
stay strong aiytes.
dont ever give up.
a failure once.
doesnt mean.
u will get another failure soon.
tuhan tak akan mendera umatNya, dengan sekejamnya.
ader hikmah disebalik ini semua aiytes.
to katheleen/khadijah.
gal. we've known each other for like more than 8 yrs.
hope u stay happy with ur guy.
im here to listen to all ur crapz.
but.
to personal stuff.
i dont like to get too much involve.
im not realli the person who noes all this.
coz. u cud see.
wat actualli happen to mine.
besttie always aiytes.
=P
stay cute and pretty always.
and to da boys-ties.
erm.yus-si.
awk.
maapkan kiter kies.
u noe wat i noe.
hope.
it will kept btw us.
haish.
i dunnoe lah awk.
i feel so sad.
feel so erm.
bingit tau.
mcm nk publish jek my diaries.
kan best!
hahax.
tapikan.
erm.
no lah.
onlii.
erm.
md. rizman
md. rifki
aliyah maisarah
aliyah natasha
and the man i love to read it!
hahahx.
wohoo!!
nani being lame again!!
whakakakakakax!!
=P
to arep,din and hadi.
guys.
seriously.
u guys are the ones.
who made me laugh.
to make me forget all my worries.
to give me the advises.
wohhooooo.
im glad to have you guys as my bros lah.
hahax.
thanks alot!!
whee..
*muacks* korang!!
to faizul.
ure like far away from us for the tyme being.
hope.
u come back in one piece.
sihat sejahtera.
insyallah.
tke cre aiytes.
hahax.
*winks*
to erms.
im sorrie lah.
not tat i dont want to go out with you.
or watever crapz it is.
sorrie.
i cant.
im still not ready.
im still vunerable.
i want to be surrounded by frens onli.
frens onli.
maap kan nani aiytes.
=P
another thing.
tat had been goin thru my head this few days.
coz.
FO camp.
are getting closer and closer.
haish.
im worried.
tat i might break down.
i might get mood swings.
argh!
im just soo scared lah.
for myself.
argh..
for those.
who noes.
u noe.
wat im talking abt right.
guys.
help me aiytes.
im sure to bring loads of choco.
to make myself hyper active.
hahhahax.
im sure will.
=P
ive been getting too much responsibilty.
too much pressure.
seriously.
may it be duniawhi or ukhwahri.
i dunnoe.
cud i survive in the life.
tat i wanted to be in soo much?
haish.
if i cant make it.
forgive me aiytes.
if i can.
alhamdullilah.
peeps coming to SP. insyallah.
fahmi, zureen, sha.
the rest.
tak tahu lah.
hahahax.
welcome to SP ppl.
dia membisu
lidahku kelu
sedangkan masa dahulu
manjanya bagaikan
anak kecil
keinginannya selalu diturutkan
namun kesudahannya
aku yang merana
tangisan duka lara
jikaku tak turutkan
aku dimasamkan muka
aku dijerling bak musuh
namun.
patutkan balasan ini ku dapat?
"teman"?
keluhan hati tidak dapat dikandung.
keluhan rasa tidak dapat ditanggung.
bak merasa.
diri ini terlalu rapuh.
book review.
the latest book i read.
permata asmara.
verrie2. touching.
i cried.
must read ppl.
highly recommended to ppl.
who are in love and heartbroken.
finished it within one day.
start reading from.
4pm. till 12am.
hahax.
with eating, solating and all lah.
hahax.
cepat kan.
so hooked into it lar.
hahax.
total pages.
458
must read tau!!
cant wait for the friendly netball match this sunday.
players.
-falina
-nani
-ama
-sahkina
-syiks
-hazimah
-iffah
-su
-sufina
wohoo.
gonna be fun.
erm.
kaki yg sakit nie.
harap2. dah baik lah.
haish.
klau tak.
pakse jek lah main.
hahahx.
i love you guys all out there!
muacks x infinity power infinity!
and erm.
except you lah gal.
tak sangka eh.
masih bacer lagik my bloggy?
klau lah ku boleh tendang dirimu.
akan ku tendang sepenuh jiwa.
whakakakax.
thanks baby taz.
muacks.
klah.
till then.
enuff said.
-nani-
holdiing0nurhandstight
holdiing0nurhandstight
Kaki ini dah macam nk patah.
Been goin out the whole week.
Except Friday.
And my leggy is crying!
Aduh2…
Kies.
Its really hurting.
So did tell mum abt it.
Goin urut.
Maybe tomolo night or Tuesday night.
So yeah.
Gd luck nani.
Erm.
So.
Saturday. Wat did I do?
Doodle ard?
Hahax.
No ler.
Kies.
This how it goes.
Hahahax.
Morning.
Angun lambat.
And then.
Hp off.
Coz.
Batt falt giler maut nyer.. So saper2.
Yang try nk kejut.
Maaf lah yer.
Hahahx.
But did make it to faizul house at 1pm with hadi.
Met bawah faizul’s blok with areep,su and din.
Hahaax.
Then naik.
Skali.
Faizul aru jek bangun.
Hahax.
Funny ler.
We ate and talk with him,his mum and kak nur.
Then. Since his flight delayed.
We left early.
Jumpe the rest first kt airport.
Then.
We solat and do whatever we need to do.
Then.
One by one.
Came.
Did some farewell wishes to faizul.
Received the amanah tat he wants me to do.
Settled.
Hahax.
Alhamdullilah.
Faizul.
U may not be here already.
Hope.
Tat u will perform ur ibadah to the upmost of ur ability.
And wen u are there.
Just forget abt spore.
If ur really ready to open up a new you.
Im glad for you.
If u don’t.
Be like me.
A tortoise.
Taking things step by step.
Hahax.
Very slow.
Summary.
Selamat pergi dan pulang.
Bon voyage bro.
Amin
=))
After the farewell.
We went eat at simpang bedok.
Memories.
Aduh!!
Haiyo.
Nani.
Ko eh.
Then.
Balik tu.
Haish.
Macam2 benda terjadik.
Tak cayer tanyer lah din,hadi and wan.
N yar.
Talking abt din.
Haish.
Din and arep. Keep bulliing me.
From morning.
Sampai lah ke
JE.
Hahax.
Haish.
Leh pengsan tau!
Whakkakakax.
(im gonna balas dendam one day din!)
=P
Erm.
Ain.
Im glad for you.
U noe wat I noe.
Hahax.
My prayers.
Dah dikabulkan.
Alhamdullilah.
I cant wait to see you verrie the soon!!.
Whakakakakx.
=P
Sunday.
Erm.
Okie lah yer.
Went for the talk with the mendaki thingy.
Then alek.
Hahax.
Kluar kt berita.
Cool.
Hehehe.
And the NYP guy.
Hahax.
So very the unexpected.
Whakakax.
Kan su?
Hehehhee.
Ouhyar.
After the mendaki thingy.
Makan kt LJS.
Then.
Me and arep.
Go borrow book kt wdls lib.
Novels.
Hahax.
Lawaks.
=P
To my dear gal.
After u read the letter.
I hope.
Everything is well answered btw both of you.
So yeah.
Maafkan lah diri sendiri and also his.
Coz.
You noe. Wat I noe right.
Smile always aiytes.
And to raudha.
Im glad.
Ure okay just now.
Hehehe.
So happy for you.
Haish.
Don’t think too much aiytes.
Be happy always.
And tats wat will make you forget things tat will just mess up ur head more
And MORE!.
=P
P.S.:: klau malas nk layan. Jgn bbual ler.! Haiyo. Namer jek pandai. Ruper nyer dodolz.
N too all my gal frens. Im so happy to have you gerls.
May be the ones.
From primary,sec and poly.
U gerls roxs!
And to din,arep,hadi,yus and faizul.
Thanks for listening to all my craps.
Erm.
I may noe u guys for like 1 yr.
But the bonding btw all of us.
Are like brothers and sista.
U guys roxz my sockz too.
Muacks.
Thanks guys.
=P
* Jika engkau tidak mengerti mengapa aku mencintaimu.
Ini kerana engkau tidak tahu bagaimana aku membencimu.
Till then. Verri the enuff said.
holdiing0nurhandstight
Im kinda bored the whole day.
Tak kluar.
Nothing much to do at home.
So yeah.
Wat did I do?
Sleep!
Whakakakax.
Klah.
I slept again. Till like 12pm like tat.
Then.
Hmm. Computer and television!
Wohoo!
I love my life now.
Walaupun.
Klau kerja dapat duit.
Tapi kan.
Macam two mths jek. Haish.
Lazy ar.
Hehehehe.
Syndrome ain!
Whakakakakax.
Klah. Talking abt ain.
I was like blog hopping.
Read ain’s blog.
And yeah.
I remembered the night.
During darmawisata 2nd nyte.
Me and ain cried together.
Abt our love story.
Haish.
We shed tears a lot.
For each other.
Satu kepasrahan. Pasal boys ard her.
And me. Was kepasrahan abt my own love story.
Why?
Ain noe.
N I noe.
Enuff.
Hahahax.
Today. Did nothing much other than blog hopping.
Then. Mummy habis kerja awal.
She got appointment kt hospital niari.
Reached home.
She cooked for me.
Hehehe.
Nice2.
Hahahax.
Watched tv. Cerita sate!
Hahahax.
Teringat plak.
Haiyo.
Okies.
Im not gonna talk abt it.
Kindda boring and lame and hurtful.
So yeah.
Lagu2 dier best.
Especially cinta azali.
By nurul.
Hehehe.
Nice2.
Then.
Went on computer.
Go online.
Ternampak lak this contact yg tk kenal.
Ruper nyer.
Her.
Okies.
Whatever.
I added her tat tyme.
Coz.
Ingat nk talk to her abt her entry.
Skali.
Tk accept.
So I was like! Forget it!
Aleh2.
Niari.
Nampak plak bayang dier.
Haiyo.
Whatever lah eh.
To my sis.
You noe who you are.
Hahahax.
Sabar jek kies.
Insyallah.
Sejarah tk kan berulang.
Just make sure.
U distant urself abit ar.
Kies.
Takut. Orang salah anggap pulak.
=P
And to the gal. yg samer nasib with me.
Hahahax.
Gal.
Relax aiytes.
Haish.
Kiter nie.
Dah single.
Mula lah orang pandang rendah kt kiter.
And talk nonsense abt us.
U just got to bear it aiytes.
Maybe.
Dorang salah anggap abt you just now.
Haiyo.
Dorang nie pun satu!!
Salah ker? Dier kater?
Dier miss her old cca?
Haiyo!!
Im kindda sad today.
Something shud be done today.
But I cant do it!
Haish.
Nani.
Wats wrong with you?
*Am I still thinking abt the past?
*Do I still got the same feelings for him like 1 yr b4?
*If the heart cant accept you more than a fren. Even till now. Why don’t you just give up?
Enuff said.
Till then.
holdiing0nurhandstight
Whakakakakax.
Nani aru habis update my diari!
Whee.
Did I wrote a long entry.
Hahax.
Coz.
Today. A great day and a sad day for me.
Yup2.
It sure is.
Hehehhe.
kk.
as I say. I didn’t have a gd nite sleep yesterday.
So yeah. Woke up early.
Went online. And update bloggy.
Then. Chat ngan shakilla!
Whakakakkax.
My bestie. My twin!
Okies.
We were lame at first.
Since she got nothing to do at home.
Ajak her. Join me and su.
Tgk boys train bola kt sch.
Hahahx. So yeah.
She and su.
Rapat cepat betol.
Hahahahx.
k. then. Kt train. We were like sharing with each other a lot of stuffs.
Like kang jian, wan and su’s ex and etc.
Hahahx.
Abt our past ar mainly.
But. We didn’t go on much deeper.
So sad.
Sha. Not goin SP!! Argh!
Klah. Tak per.
Still can meet her.
Hahahhax.
Then. Sampai sch jek.
Kawan faan ader.
Two of them.
One of them kinda cute!
Hahahax.
Kan su!!
Hehehhe.
We watched them tgk bola.
Then.
Makan.
Nani makan nasi ayam penyet!
Ahahax.
Ouhyar.
Zainal played with them today.
He wore white.
Kindda hot.
But then.
To think again.
Forget it ar!
Haha
Hahahx.
So yeah.
The boys played streetsoccer after playing mudd at the field.
Then.
Dorang wash up.
And su went audition.
Hahahax.
I tot of goin.
But to think again.
Commitments.
I got a lot in hand already.
Nani tk berani.
I noe. My limits.
Haish.
Kindda sad.
But its okies.
Perhaps another tyme.
I wanted to join soo much.
But to think abt the commitments.
Im just worried.
I cant do my best for the one whole week of stress trainings.
So yeah.
I didn’t went.
We went for night walk recee.
Hahahahx.
Funny ar.
Sha and arep.
Was all the way.
Gaduh-ing.
The. Sha. Kindda of emo. Wen sampai kt EEE sch.
Memories right gal.
Haish.
U gotto forget it.
Even how sweet it is.
Even how pain it is.
U got to endure.
Stay strong aiytes.
=)
Then. The results.
Su,arep,asmida,fuad,jeff and aj.
Congrates for getting the roles.
All the best.
Im sure to support you guys aiytes.
Hahahahax.
And to su.
All I can say.
Take cre and best wishes.
Hahahahx.
U noe.
Wat I noe.
Hahahax.
Ko takut?
Aku pon takut untuk ko!!
Hahahax.
Unexpected man!
But nvm.
We’ll just see wat happen next aiytes.
Hahahahahx.
=)
So. SSP continued their meeting.
I left early with falina and sha.
Hahahax.
The three old peeps are back again except rashidah.
Haish.
Sad. Sad.
Kt mrt.
I shared wat I really feel in me.
And they understand.
Coz.
All this while.
In wdls sec.
They are the ones.
Who hear all my crapz.
They noe me well enuff.
Im glad.
U guys are still there for me.
I love you guys loads.
Whee…
Thanks again.
Falina. And sha.
I will sure do.
Thanks gals.
Went home.
Mummy merajuk with me.
Hahax.
Why? Coz. Yesterday. Told her.
Im not goin out today.
But I did.
So yeah.
Friday.
Im not goin out.
Coz.
My leggy are like so dah nk patah.
Omg!
Haish.
Sakit tau.
The joints at my knees.
Macam nk potong jek kaki2 nie!
Hahahahhax.
But b4 she slept.
She gave me a gd nite kiss.
Hahahax.
So sweet of her.
Love her!
Hehehehhehehe.
So yeah.
Me wanna go ice skating this Monday.
Saper2 nk join.
Just tell me and su aiytes.
Hahahahx.
Wanna have fun!
Whee..
Btw.
Next week training bola.
Hahahax.
Syafiq nk train kiter.
Hahahax.
But he still says.
Pending.
So.
We’ll see how it goes aiytes.
=)
Btw.
Nani ader frog prince.
Hahahax.
He’s funny and lame.
And loves to make his frens smile and laugh!
Hahahax.
Frog prince.
Thanks.
For being my fren!
Hahahahx.
Nice noeing you too!
Btw.
I cant wait for u to be my punching bag!
Hahahahx!
Gonna bulli you all the way.
Wohoooo!!!
=P
Klah ppl.
Enuf said.
Im not gonna emo today.
Coz.
I cant type much.
My hand pon ngah sakit.
Aduh!
Aduh!
Hahahahahx.
=)
Till here. Enuff said.
holdiing0nurhandstight
Reached home.
Ate. (was soooo damn hungry)
Watched CSI season 7.
Wanted to watched CSI Miami.
But my eyes. Just wanna close.
So yeah. I slept early.!
Wohooo!!
=)
Silat training was okay lah.
Was very tiring.
Was very balancing.
Was very, “menguji kesabaran”.
Hahahax.
Apai. “dera” us on the balancing part!
Wohoo!!
Muscles tegang beb!
Hmm.
=P
Yeah. I didn’t sleep again after I woke up today!
Wohoo!!
N now. Im blogging.
Hahahhax.
Did really get a gd sleep.
A disturbed sleep I guess.
Dream abt something.
N my cheek was wet wen I woke up.
So. Hmm. I cried.
It was a gd and a bad dream.
But the saddest thing was that. It’s the same person.
Both dream was abt the same person!!
How pathetic.
Hmm.
Im happy. And im sad!
Whahahaahax.
Mimpi2 yang aku mimpikan.
Memedihkan perasaan.
Menguji kesabaran.
Dapatkah aku terus begini?
Im glad. Someone is really happy now.
Again. All the best in ur future endeavors aiytes.
Im gonna go out with my sec sch peeps very soon.
Me, mirul and sha.
The three musketeers.
Hahahhax.
Whee. So happy!!
=)
Hunny bunny. Gal. thanks aiytes.
For all the attention u gave me.
Erm. I just cant get rid of the feeling lah gal.
Its just so difficult u noe.
Hahahax. Nevertheless.
I love you loads.
U came back to Singapore at the right time!
I love you darl.
Tke cre of me always aiytes.
As always. U noe everything abt me sooo well!
Hahahahx. Love you.
Im worried abt someone so much.
But yet. I cant be there for that someone.
I really hope. I cud be there.
Hold the hands. And pray for the best at the same time.
Sometimes. We cant get wat we want.
But yet.
There’s always something gd for us to achieve and be happy with.
Im just waiting for tat moment.
For me to be happy.
Really happy.
That comes straight from my small heart.
Ppl come and go in our life.
But we tend to treasure them.
Wen they are gone.
At first.
Wen we first met them.
Things wud be perfectly okay.
The more we spent tyme.
The more we noe abt their attitudes.
The more.
We tend to have second tots abt them.
But its all up to you.
To take it positively or negatively.
May u cherish your days with the ppl u love.
Life haven’t been blissfully enuff for me.
Its been a real tough roller coaster ride for me.
May it be with my mum.
Famili and mates and sch and mls..
And for love.
Ive got no comments on that.
Sometimes. My diari is the place.
I let go of my anger.
While.
My mum. Is the place. I let go of my tears.
But the feeling is just not the same.
Wen u let go to someone really special in ur life.
Mummy is a great listener.
I cant deny tat. And yet.
She’s the bestest mum I cud ever haf.
I thank Allah loads for having her my mum.
=)
There’s just one promise.
Ive yet keep on waiting.
I hope. I’ll get the present pretty soon from you.
=)
I wanna go to school.
To watch the boys train soccer.
But kind of lazy.
Body aching.
Tummy having fever.
And its just wont stop coming out.
Haish.
How I wish.
The person is here with me.
=(
Dang!
Its like.
Wheee.
Im happy it stoooooop wen the doctor gave me the med!
And say it will cure.
Tapi. Skrg! Masih ader lagik. It still coming out.
Like no body business.!
Hahahax.
Mummy says. If next week.
Got again.
Im off to KKH!
Argh!!!
Nani. Ure are totally dead.
Btw. Im not ready for the competition.
Im joining.
The preliminary round is like in march.
N yet.
Im not ready at all.
Shud I just back off??
Coz. Erm.
Me myself.
I don’t believe. If I can really do it.
And make myself proud.
Wat shud I do?
Wat shud I do?
Hmmms.
=(
Klah.
The more I type.
The more crappy ill go.
Ill just go to my diari next then.
Tke cre peeps.
Im so missing you guys this hols.
Syiks,ain. I miss you guys loads.
Muacks.
*I got a song in mind. Gonna write it down. Dedicated just for you. But sad enuf. I cant show it to you. Gonna keep it till the tyme is right.*
Gal. a diari. Is something u don’t show ppl. So pls don’t pester me. To let you read my diaries aiytes. Haish. Im sorrie. I noe. I cud trust you. But some things are just tooo personals. Hmm. Jgn merajuk pls. pls.
To noe wat really happen during the 1 yr.
And my feelings tat I went thru during tat 1 yr.
Its just not gonna have any benefits on you and on me.
So yeah.
Pls utd gal.
There will only be 5 ppl who I wud let read those diaries.
Insyallah.
If they do. Come in my life.
-Klau di panjangkan umur untuk ku memeluk dan membelai mereka dgn kasih sayang yg sepenuh-nya.
tika rindu melanda diri. ku kenangkan masa silam. tika sedih menjiwai diri. ku kenangkan saat terindah.
Till then. Enuff said.
holdiing0nurhandstight
Im like totally lazy to update.
Seriously.
Why?
Hmm. Let me start dari pagi kies.
I slept at 5am.
Wake up at 6am.
Tido balik at 8am.
Ingat nk tido for satu jam lagik b4 meeting FOC!
But yet. Terbabas. Until. 9.30am.
So im like late!
Hahahax. Verry2 late.
Lom print documents lagik!
Haiyo. Dead.
So yeah. As usual. I on my heater first. So tat.
I can have my hot bath! Whee… im loving it!
k. then. I print some impt docs. To pass to CC and ACC.
Then. Mandi. Then pack bag. Then kluar!
Didn’t have my breakfast! Argh. N im like totally hungry.
N I was like. So lazy to wake up tadik pagi?
First of all. My leg is still hurt.
Second of all. Im having fever.
Third of all. I was having a maigrain.
Yet. No more mood swing!
Walalalallalala.
Aint im glad.
At last. I get rid of my mood swings.
Mummy says. That I haven’t been moody swing since. Erm. Last week wed?
Walalallalalalala.
Another achievement made.
But mummy ask me to stop sleeping late. And wake up late.
Wlalalallaal. Need to change on tat.
Hmm. I will.
Hehehehe. But need to take some time ar.
Changing is not easy.
Yup2.
=)
Klah. Get ready. And went out quickly.
Reached there like in 35mins?
Hahahx. Y?
Sampai jek busstop. Bus 856 sampai.
Sampai jek kt mrt station marsiling.
Mrt pon sampai..
Lucky day for me man!
Hahahax.
Reached meeting.
N I was like the last three to be late.
Hahax.
So hmm.
I need to change.
Argh!!!
=)
Meeting was okay.
Short and sweet.
Most of the tyme. I was like half awake.
Argh!
Ngantok beb!
=P
After meeting. Headed towards al-amin mosque.
To discuss abt the leadership camp we are suppose to organized.
Hmm. Was shocked!
Argh. Coz. The msg says. Tat it wud be.
A guideline for the next batch of excos.
But overall. I was happy too ar.
To liase with mosque. And to work wif them.
I lioke.
=P
Hahahahx.
Hmm. Had a quick delayed lunch at harbourfront.
Ate. Nasi with ayam,telur and kupang sambal.
Power beb!was nice and cheap.
Hahahax. Seriously.
Im like jelak wif fast food. Coz. Hmm.
U shud noe.
Hahahax.
Next stop.
My uncle’s place.
Did some coversations and melawats.
Bought slurpee at the 7-eleven kt bawah.
Farisha was there.
Play2 with her.
Ikin aru angun tido. And she was like mengegau.
Aiman dah balik.
So sad.. hmm. =(
Kacau2 ikin and saif.
Hahax . imagining they were to be togeder?
*blueks*
Hahahx. Cute couples I wud think.
Hmm.
Insyallah. Ill pray for ur happiness aiytes darlz.
Watched gol and gincu.
Kecian putri. Kenek tipu dgn mum and also eddy.
Eddy. Don’t do tat to her again man.
If you were to do again.
Then it wud be the 2nd tyme seh.
Kecian putrid. Haish.
Aperlah nasib dier.
Ingin kebahagian. Tetapi.
Tidak dapat mencapainya.
Hmm
=(
Went home with mummy naik bus 911
Mummy talked abt her workplace.
And I told her abt silat.
Hahahax.
I really hope. Sp join silatdra!
Wlalalalalla. Gonna be fun!
Slept at her shoulder and pimpin her hand back to our place.
*kenangan terimbas kembali*
Im so happy. Im in a totally gd terms with mummy.
Im glad.
Thanks mum.
=)
Im not totally me yet.
but im glad.
That all my old peeps are here with me again.
N someone.
Wants to belanje me!
Wlalallala.
He remembers tat he haven’t gave me my 17th birthday gift!
Hahahax.
Thanks bro!
Hehe.
=)
Gonna love it.
And do u really wanna call it a *date*?
Hmm. Tk nk lah.
Pls.. hehehehe.
*I wanna be me again*
Setiap kali. Ku pandang.
Hatiku. Pedih. Tersiksa.
Ku kuatkan diri ini.
Untuk ku tempuhi realiti ini.
Ingin ku menjauhkan diri.
Tetapi.
Ku tidak tahu bagaimana.
Kesana. Mati emak.
Kesini. Mati bapak.
Ku bingung.
Terus kebingungnan.
Aku serahkan.
Jalan kehidupanku.
Ditangan Ilahi.
Akan ku cuba lalui dugaan ini.
Dgn sedaya upaya.
Akan ku belajar dari kesilapanku.
Namun. Tika ku jatuh.
Bimbinglah diri ini.
Berilah semangat kepadaku.
Satu sahaja yang ku inginkan.
Persahabatan yang sejati.
# Teman. Aku kepasrahan. #
* ilovenani , im waiting for ur return.
holdiing0nurhandstight
Why?
Frens!
Yes.
They are around me.
And I cant deny. Im very happy with the life im leading now.
May I be attached or single. I want to live it to the fullest.
Ku tidak pernah memintamu untuk menyayangiku.
Dan apatah lagi mengasihaniku. Juga tidak sama sekali.
Ku tahu sebenarnya kita. Tiada pertalian.
Cuma satu arah. Serta satu tujuan. Untuk mencari keberkatannya.
Itulah kata2 yang memberi nani semangat.
And of course. My frens and my famili.
Whee…
Okies. My last post. I stopped on Saturday kan?
Erm. Aper jadik tat day eh?
Morning was horrible I cud say.
Very sad and emotional for me.
N I cried out loud. For goodness sake.
Yet. After tat. I pull myself together again.
And yup. I was okay.
But I miss the talk with mendaki.
(heard the foody was nicey-nice! Hymph!)
Then tat evening.
Pals came down to my house.
They discuss abt the tomolo’s bbq.
I cant deny. It was like a last minute work ar.
Book pit lengah2 lagik.
The day b4 the bbq aru book. Nasib baik ader tempat.
Hmm. Then. We went shopping for the bbq at sheng shiong.
Hahahx. Borong hog dogs.
Hahahax.
Then. The ate at my place.
Kinda like they make like their own place.
N I lioke. Whee.
Mummy wast ard. So was like. Erm.
Nvm. I shall keep tat to myself.
Hehehehhe.
So yeah. The next morning!
Whee.. the day ive been waiting for!!
I wanna enjoy myself to the fullest.
Hahahax.
Bangun pagi! (kind of lambat jugak ar)
Beli ayam kt pasar with mummy.
Arep was like early. So he got to wait kt bawah blok. Till mummy n I finish shopping.
Then. Mummy do the marinating.
And I get ready the stuff.
While others. Came. One by one.
Hahax.
Kecoh ar.
Hehehhehee.
I lioke!!!
=)
We made our way to ecp.
Naik bus.
As usual.
I was kinda emotional.
Hahahax.
Then. We walk all the way to out pit!
Was kinda long. And lazy to walk.
Coz.
I think.
I was like.
Not enuff sleep.!
Argh. I slept at like 4am? Then sadar at?
Like 5am?
Then. Gi pasar lagik?
So yeah. Was tired!
Me and su. Dah tak sabar nk mandi laut!
So we had our changing in the tent with raudha.
Hahahx,
Then. The three kambengs. Masuk laut. With one monkey. Which is arep!
Hahahax. Then. Ama and wan came along.
Bawak spaghetti.
Then.we stopped for a while.
Tunggu ama pakai tudung. (gal. u took 1 hr man!)
We played. Football monkey.
Hahahahx.
Nani kenek jadik monkey dua kali.
Sad kan. Hahahax. Tapi fun..
(I tried running away from u several times. =))
Then. We masuk air lagik.
This tyme.
With liyana, ama, wan, din and yus.
Hahahx.
We played waterpolo.
And as usual. I use my netball skills.
And my temberang skills (cheating)! Hahahahx.
Whee. The gals played against the boys.
With faan in our team!
Whee. Me and faan as strikers. And we made a great attacking team!
Hahahax.
(I ran again. Far2 away. But hmm.)
=(
Then. Lepas mandi-ing. Me and ama. Go rent bike.
Hahax.
A two seater one.
Hahahax.
We went go rent the bike. With one bike and one in-line skates.
So. Ama wore the skates first. Me ride the bike.
But. We didn’t make it. Susah beb!
Then. Change. Me took the in-line skates. Ama ride the bike.
Pon tak menjadik.
So at last. Hahahax. Ama ride the bike. Me tompang kt depan!
Kalau dah tahu. Hahahx. Dari pit kiter dah buat.
Dah lah macam budak dodols.
Tarik saner. Tarik sini.
Ketawa saner. Ketawa sini.
Hahax.
But was cute ar!!
Best!!
Hehehe. Sampai kt kedai. Luper bwk NRIC.
Rabaks kan.
So yeah.
I ride back all the way. And took my NRIC.
Hahahax.
Balik pit.
Ama took the double. While I took the single.
Sampai jek kt pit balik.
We masuk air again.
And the boys were like bukak seluar dalam air?
Hmmmm..s…
Nvm. I noe. U noe. Right.
Hahax. I noe well enuf I think. Yupp!!
So yeah. The gerls kluar dari air. For the boys to buat their stuffs.
Hahahx. Then. Parents call in.
Cik sofia and my mum dah sampai.
So a few boys. And su and zeemah.
Fetch them and to get the foods.
Me and ama. Get ready on the bike. To go bathe.
Su came along. Running2 mcm bay watch. Hahax. Joined us.
As usual. We took the double.
Me kt depan. Ama take the lead sitting at the first sit. And su. Took the back.
Hahax. Kiter tiga dah macam tiga abdul.
Cute2. shud have took a pic.
Nvm. We’ll do it again. One day aiytes.
Hehehehe.
Came back after bathing.
Raudha, ain and liyana left already.
Sad. Did had the chance to hug,kiss and tickle them.
Hahahax. I guess my gal still sad abt him.
Stay strong aiytes. Im always here behind you.
And ain.
I miss you too! Hahahax.
Erm. Me, adaw and irfan starts the fire.
Hahax. Tak sangka plak. Irfan pon npcc.
Best male cadet. Wah cayer samer lu beb!
Tak sia2. npcc ajar macam maner nk start fire klau ko tak leh apply.
Hahax. Im proud of you.
Hahax.
But im better. Coz. The best female unit cadet is much better than the boys!
Hahahax. Lame. I noe.
But seriously.
I cant deny.
This two cute couples.
Adaw and irfan.
Azlin and yan!
Hahax.
Soo cute! =)
Kies.
We start the barbequeing.
Hahahx.
Irfan was lame all the way.
I don’t noe how adaw can handle him.
Hahax. But yet. He made things much more fun.
I was tired. Seriously tired.
Wanted to help out for the bqq-ing. But was realli2 tired.
Joined ama.
Then played uno with the rest.
As usual. I finished first. (luqman. I didn’t show to anibody my card aiytes!)
Hahahax..
Then. We start eating ramai2.
I sat in the circle.
Then. More and more ppl join.
It was fun lah.
Btw. Me saw. Mummy and cik sofia interrogate epin?
Aper hal ar??
Hahahax.
Nevertheless. I think. She had funnn.
She met her old work mate.
Which is zeemah’s dad. Hahahax.
So yeah.
Hehehe.
=)
Then. Me and ama. Took a mat. Lay down.
Look at the sky.
Talk abt the stars.
And some deepest secrets.
Hahahx.
Shared with her.
Abt the first impression guy I like.
And yeah.
Both ama and su laugh terbahak2.
Hahahax.
Believe it or not.
It was..
Hahahx.
Don’t tell!!
Hehehehhehe….
Me,su and hadi got to go home.
Hmm. So yeah. Naik satu kereta.
Kecoh dok!!
Mummy. Really sucks. In directions. So as me.
(so how am I gonna drive in the future?)
So yeah. Hadi pon. Kecoh2. tapi tak ader hasil.
Su. Biaser lah eh.
Kecoh2.
Hahax. Cik sofia pon join in.
So yeah.
How lost we were?
Hmm. Ama reached first than me!
Whakakakakx. So tats how long I took.
Coz. We were lost.
Hahahhax.
=)
Tgk csi sekejab. Mandi. Terus tido!!
Whakakakakx.
So yeah. Monday was the first training bola!
Whaduh! Malas nk bangun!
Penat beb! Whakakakakx.!
Kaki ku masih cramp. Coz of silat on Friday.
And the 4 hrs swimming!
Argh!!
Kies. Training goes well. As usual. I was late.
Star-karats.
Hmmm. Knape. Semenjak holiday nie. Nani lambat jek tau. Hahahahx.
So yeah. Came with hadi,su and din!
Whakakakakax.
Did some warming up.
Then. Pass ball. The. Played a match. The rest. And so on lah.
Hahax. Im sucks in dribble-ing.
So yeah. Hahahax.
N im like keroh! Goal post tempat lain. Aim tempat lain.
Yang lain okay lah yer!
Hahahx. Luper ar. Semuer yang sudah dibelajar di wdls sec.
Hahax.
So who was our coach? Shakinah!! Hahax. The gal I ever played netball with!
Hahax. Which is ama classmate. So yeah!!
Hahahahx.
Boys played at the court next to us. But with volleyball ball. Hahahx.
=)
Lepas tu. Makan. At waffleton.
And dang.
Zainal dyed his hair.
Look kindda cute ar.
But.. hmm. Someone’s cuter I guess. Hahahax.
Then. Naik mls. Rest2.
Tukar baju.
Then. Gie ssp training for gpa!!
Whee.
Dah lamer tk gie ssp.
Hmm. Miss it loads. And I guess I miss loads of fun and tricks.
Hmm. Nvm. Gonna catch up on all the stuff I love to do again!
Whee…
Training was at city hall.
Esplanade nyer underpass.
The place. Where me ever train dance b4 there.
Hahax.
Memories.
Hahahx. Maser training tu.
Ader lah this one grp.
Consist of one “guy”
And 2 gals.
Seriously.
The guy. Bapok giler mak deng!
Then the other two gals. Were okay.
He wore. Damn low cute v-neck shirt!
Sexy beb!
Hahahax.
Left training early. At 6.
Coz. My mum and su’s mum will be like angry with us soon enuf.
Hmm.
So yeah.
I didn’t get the chance to monologue.
Hahax.
Nevermind.
One day. I will kies.
I promise.
(joker of the day:jeff!)
Hahhahax.
Overall. It was fun weekend and Monday.
But seriously.
My badan dah tk leh angkat.
Macam kerja kt cavana seh!
Why???
Everyday bangun pagi.
Balik lambat.
And penat!
So yeah.
Hmmmm..
Besok meeting. Hmm. Pukol 10.
Jgn nani bangun pukol 9 lagik sudah!
Hahahx. Ppl keep forcing me. Tido awal.
But seriously ppl.
I cant. Bukan nani tk nk. Nani tak boleh.
Haish. Saper yg tahu sebab nyer. Bagus. Yang tak tahu.
Faham2kan jek lah kies.
Hahahhax.
Klah.
I shall end here.
Btw. I got announcement.
Gals friendly match: netball
11.03.2007
Sunday
Ngee ann poly.
4.30-6.30pm
Lawan dgn my and falina fren nyer team.
Hahahx.
Satu team jek.
Hahahahx.
So yeah. Saper2 interested. Just tell me aiytes.
Hehehhehe.
Tats all peeps. I shall stoop my nonsense here.
And totally. My fren call me attitood gal! argh!
I hate you gal!
Hahahahx.
Muacks!!
=)
*tika ku rindu pada pelukkanmu. Akan ku kembali ke masa silam. Saat-saat manis bersama dengan dirimu. Tika aku bangga di dalam dakapanmu. Akan ku sentiasa merinduimu
wahai putera hatiku.
*winks*
=)
holdiing0nurhandstight
-`tagboard