Soorrie for the silence from this blog!hahax.im more engross with my multiply instead.nah!ill update both from now on!promise aiytes!takin cre ppl!lova ya! if ya wondering wats my multiply...*kiniotinani.multiply.com* takin cre!muacks! -nani-
holdiing0nurhandstight
i just dunnoe why.
but suddenly.
things aint correct lah.
wen it suppose to be.
for example.
erms.
my pals relationship lah.
seriously.
im just confused.
abt wat my frens trully feels.
wat is there in them.
i noe its wrong for me to try and read ppls mind.
and try to figure up wat they trully feel in them lahx.
haish.
im realli confused lah.
seriously.
i dunnoe how to help them.
erms.
k.
as u guys noe.
my past relationship aint goin that well.
and erms.
i gave it all out.
try my best.
gave evrything he needs.
and try my best in making both sides happy.
but in the end.
im the one who's crumppled lah.
klah.
so.
for the fact that you guys are asking me.
how do u guys safe ur relationship.
seriously.
i donnt noe wat to say.
coz.
me myself.
i cant even safe my relationship lah.
lol!
klah.
seriously.
im confused.
as a pal.
i guess.
i shud have tried to make u feel better lah.
but im realli sorrie.
if i didnt.
why do i say so.
klah.
for the fact that i told you abt.
the meeting always.
will actualli make ur relationship much more worst.
its aint for all cases lah.
if both of you.
understands each other well enuff.
trust one another.
and didnt misuse the trust that ur partner gave you.
meeting often.
or not meeting often wont make a difference lah.
its how.
you guys approached it.
different ppl.
have different ways.
but too me.
follow ur heart.
gal.
giving him everything he wants.
all his deisres.
emrs.
i shall say.
its not the correct thinglah.
from experience.
it will just make you feel horrible.
wen he's no longer urs.
even though.
he may say.
trust him.
that he onli love you.
and no one can replace you.
for everything he wants from you.
he wud say he love you.
its all bull shit lah!
to get him all the things he wants.
i guess.
he's just trying to finish up ur money lah or just.
plainly taking advantage of you lohx!
ARGH!
im just stress lah.
talking abt all this!
haiyo...
klah.
erms.
about the touching2 part eh.
hahax..
im not at it gd enuff.
coz.
me sendiri lemah wen it comes to tat lah.
u cant imagine lah.
so yeah.
wen having the person you love beside you.
you will tend to show him how much u love him.
by such ways of kissing and holding hands.
by such ways of hugging and etc. etc.
im no one here to touch on tat.
forgive me.
so. u called me.
right after i left my frens to take 178.
which i was like kindda lost findin the busstop.
erms.
im kindda glad.
u called at the right tyme.
such tat.
wen im alone.
so..
there you are crying while talking at me.
erms.
i noe how it feels lah kies.
seriously.
i wud say.
get a grip even though u cant.
kies.
just try your best.
if u feel like taking painkiller.
just do.
as long.
dont overdose urself!
hahax. if not.
u shall let the history repeats itself.
by vomitting dry blood.
in the middle of the night!
lolX!!
klah gal.
just take care.
i hope.
the hugs i gave you just now.
and the hot choco i treat u.
shall make u better.
and make you cool down lah kies.
i dont feel like talking to you animore on this matter.
coz.
i noe.
its gonna hurt you lah.
past right!
hahax.
tke cre kies.
just stay strong.
i noe.
your much much more stronger than me lah.
but im sorrie.
i cant help saving ur relatinship.
coz.
i guess he made up his mind.
kindda wth lah.
but wat to do.
guys are guys.
but not all guys are evil lah.
one day.
shall he realise his mistake.
insyallah.
he'll return.
and shall appreciate you more.
insyallah.
we'll doa for the best kies.
amin.
whakakakax.
im pissed.
totally pissed today!
whakakakkakax.
shall start of with morning.
as usual.
i slept late.
5am to be sharp
raudha woke me up ard 8.30.
but i decided to sleep again.
hahax.
terbabas lah sampai pukol 9.30.
whakakax.
so.
erms.
not late for the meeting abt the tarian thinggy.
coz.
org yg chair meeting lambat jugak.
hahahax.
meeting went well lah.
tak ader cat fight or wat craps lah.
hahax.
everyone.
came to a point of agreement.
and both sides were happy lah.
alhamdullilah.
amin.
after that boys.
were off to thier kompang thinggy.
then.
me,arep,su and raudha.
makan kt FC3.
erms.
tak kecoh.
tak seriah maner lah.
lepas tu.
duduk2 kt mls sekajab b4 moving off to IMM.
the motive of me wanting to go to IMM is to find presents.
for my pals lah.
hahax.
tapi niat tak kesampaian!
whaduh!
klah.
otw balik tu.
kat call me.
crying.
and decided to meet her.
tot she need some hugs.
and someone to comfort lah.
seeing her now eh.
haish.
i just wish.
both of us.
sticks with our pendirian not to have any guy.
until finish poly.
we made tat agreement like.
in pri 6.
hahax.
lawaks ler.
seeing her.
der!
i feel like crying too.!!
whakakakax.
sakit tu eh.
hanya Allah sahaja lah yang tahu.
Insyallah.
semua ini akan ada hikmah.
i shall just wait and see.
kadang2 tu.
tak sabar jugak lah.
tot of doin wat ive been thinkin of doin.
kindda evil!!
whakakakkax.
but too bad.
im still nani.
im not as bad to make someone cry for 1 mth plus straight!!
klah.
otw nk balik tu.
kan 178 belakang lib.
(after calling din)!
whakakax.
so tot of disturbing ian kerja kt macD at JE!
hahax.
tapi bler call.
dier kater he tak kerja!
aper jek.
tak fun ler!!
hehe.
aru jek nk kacau.
hahax.
fren.
ure evil froggy with lots of craps!!
hahax!!
=))
sampai umah abt 8+!!!
argh!!
coz.
bbbual ngan kat kt lib.
bought two hot chocos!!
whakakax.
im loving every slip of it lah!
hahax.
sampai umah.
makan nasi.
mummy cook sambal tumis udang!!
whakakakkax.
i love it soo much ler!!
hahax.
der my fav.
is home cooked sambal tumis udang and mee goreng basah.
klau makan kt luar. i lioke mee hong kong!!
whakakkax.
my fav. foodies.
hehehhe.
muacks.
so yeah.
faizul invite all of us to his.
makan2 kt umah him. after his returning.
insyallah.
i shall try to make it lah.
bnyk benda seh this sat!
i shall die!
whakakkakax.
then.
got this msg.
tat kindda start me pissing off lah!
whakkakax.
i guess.
im no one impt lah.
as i say.
kata2 indah hanya kepalsuan semata-mata.
keindahan yang engkau lihat.
kerna kasih sayang.
kata dilupakan!
wth.
i shall ignore everything.
till u utd wat i really feel inside me.
tot u did.
coz u say u did.
i guess you dont.
shall go the way u want it to be.
shall follow.
the beat you are playing.
=))
my mood are goin hire wire.
shall stop now.
if not.
i will talk more rubbish.
diari. walauweh.
moving on to next book alreadi seh!
argh.
tat will be like my 17th!
argh.
wat craps did you write nani??
argh!!
guilt still running.
and the same question still poundering.
err!
i shall bring it up one day to the whole world.
shall dey hear my cries.
till then.
enuff said.
holdiing0nurhandstight
evening was much more worst for me.
erms.
now.
my left eye.
arrr...
red.
im having sore eyes i guess.
argh!
its soo..
irritating lah.
sick.
erms.
=(
mummy reached home.
cook dinner for us.
then.
after mahgrib.
while eating.
i duscussed with her abt the job.
the cavana part time manager thinggy.
eventhough.
i filled up the form alreadi.
i still need to ask her permission.
and guess wat?
yup.
she didnt allow me.
she says tat.
i had enuff commitments alreadi.
argh!!
kindda true lah.
but err..
its money lah.
erms.
and peeps there lah.
they are just soo..
happening lohx.
haish.
so sad lah.
but its okay.
hope tat after poly.
i hope.
i still get the offer ar.
erms!!
i got the job becoz.
tom recommeneded me.
hahax.
he called me up.
and ask me.
whether am i up to it or not?
hahax.
its like.
i work there for only 3mths.
but im a all station worker lah.
sometimes.
i do the kitchen!
(ever cut my finger once)
i do the main counter.
sometimes. do the sausage counter.
(i hate tat station the most! coz i dont eat sausage! der!!)
sometimes. do the clean up.
and sometimes.
do the washing of dishes lah.
hahax.
so as to say.
i can do all the jobscope in cavana sembawang.
just name it!
whakakakkax.
i miss the cavana laksa lohx!
lol!!!
klah. so i guess.
i will not go on with the training.
tat will start next thursday!
whakakkax.
klah.
nvm.
perhaps another tyme.
no use. begging my mum.
coz. she told me. tats her final decision.
and i guess. she noes. wats best for me lah.
haish.
lagikpon.
my results. bukan nyer bagus sgt!
argh!!
kk.
concentrate on ur studies nani!!
erms!!
so yeah.
i watched dance floor.
erms. wasnt i supposed to go silat today?
wanted to. but i cant.
err!
hope tat the sore eyes wont get worst!
argh!!
im gonna cry lah.
klah.
dance floor.
i cud say that.
erms.
all 10 teams did well lah.
erms.
something caught my right eye!
hahax.
wan from the break force crew.
he's kindda cute right? dont u think so?
hahax.
then. amsyar from styles from beyond pon cute!!
hahax.
like the hairs!
whakakkakax
JDI and fantasticfour! argh... all cute lah.
hahax.
blueks!
love them loads!!
whakakkakax.
ouhyar.
there's this one phrase tat i think kindda kewl.
"outshine the sun you can!"
from the styles from beyond!
true lah guys.
u guys rocks my socks!!
wohoo!!
then. i watch.
danielle.
whakkakakax.
kewl.
and touching!
whakakkakax.
shamil and epin rocks lah!!
hahax.
great acting lah guys.!
wohooo!!
im seriously sick lah.
cannot tahan lohx.
head veri the heavy lah!!
argh!
wanna cry!!
sore eyes are very the itchy lah!!
argh!!!
sick sick sick!!
wth!!
cant sleep!!
will feel like crying!!
argh!!
i shall stop watever i crapp doin today.
i shall go on with the stuffs that ive been thinking these few days lah kies.
let be frankly in my post!
to my dear sis tat i shall not name you here.
u asked me.
can ur relationship last wen u are now feeling bored with the guy u are with now?
gal. seriously. i think ure crapping!
seriously.
u are being stupid lah!
the guy is there loving u soo much.
and now.
u are bored with him!
wth lah gal!!
be happy coz.
there are at least a guy. who still loves you.
who appreciate ur love!
love dont get bored.
if it comes from ur heart.
he may not noe how to entertain you.
he may not have tyme to meet u always.
and spent tyme with you.
you noe wat?
i think.
tats the best way.
for a relationship to last!
why?
emms.
the more you dont meet.
the lesser that both of you will quarrel and start to have second tots abt each other!
tat will last long.
i noe.
u will get bored.
and you will longed for him.
but dont you think.
from there.
you noe.
how much the person realli mean to you.
i noe.
its not boredom dear.
its just the feeling of loneliness.
when he's not there beside you.
but be glad.
that even when he's far away from you.
in his heart.
ure the princess.
ure the gal. he love.
gal. i noe. he didnt gave you a birthday present for your 18th birthday.
im realli sorrie to hear tat.
but be glad.
that u still have his love.
maybe.
he have his own reasons for not getting for you.
but.
i noe.
his love.
does not measure by the stuff he gets for you.
but the sincerity from the heart.
be glad.
that he loves you soooo much.
and have never tot of another relationship.
have never ever tot to be with another gal except you.
i believe tat both of you can last long.
promise me.
tat all the ups and downs u guys go thru.
will make ur relationship. a stronger one aiytes.
i love u sis.
just take cre.
=)
to the person whom this may concern you.
yeah.
wen we are sick.
we longed to have the person we love to be beside us.
to belai us.
but too bad.
they are not there wen we need them.
i understand ur feeling my dear fren.
but dont you think.
its goin too fast?
i think.
u shall not burden this in ur mind.
take things slow and steady.
it wud be a much better position for both of you.
i noe.
it come without you noticing it.
but.
u got to think abt the pros and cons.
but one thing.
just remember.
watever ur decision is.
make sure.
it will make you happy.
and be glad of.
dont think too much abt others feelings.
but just consider the effects of tat to others.
ill just pray for the best.
May Allah bless the decisions you make.
Insyallah.
im seriously.
argh!!
sick.
i guess.
ive been thinking too much.
tiring myself too much too.
havent been getting enuff rest this few days.
ive been doin too much things lah.
argh!!
feelings have been a roller coaster to me.
up and down. down and up.
argh!!
now i realli feel like goin to escape theme park!!
whakakakakau!!
erms.
i just need more tyme for myself lah.
argh.
competition this saturday.
and im not sure am i up to it or not.
if i were to back out last minute.
i shall ask nor atikah to replace me.
insyallah.
she will do us nur-ians proud.
im just not ready and prepare lah!
i shall blame myself too lah.
i didnt put it as a priority.
coz. erms. im not confident lah!!
argh!!!
kk.
not low self estemmmm
but just.
erms.
im a freako gal lah.
kk.
shall not elaborate on tat!
whakakkax.
kk.
but.
i shall try.
on fiday.
if its not gd.
i shall pass it to someone better kies!
can?
hmmms.
insyallah.
amin.
every steps i made
i noe.
Allah is there to protect me.
im not afraid.
coz i did nothing wrong.
i noe.
ill be happy once again.
i just got to grow thru all this with a strong heart.
love does not measure the physical stuffs u made.
the physically it affects you.
but how emotionally it hurts you.
of course.
all the physical things you've done is a maksiat.
but how do you overcome the urge of you doin it?
its difficult.
i noe.
wen a gerl and a guy are together.
its easy for you to say.
tat.
"biler aku ader matair. aku tak kan ....."
but then.
its different.
wen u actualli do have one.
i guess.
it stil hurts me.
and the feeling of guilt is still in me.
but im just wondering.
how can he forgets it soo easily?
erms.
=(
for a man tat ive love.
its not easy for me to get a replacement.
a love is soo precious.
tat you have to go thru hell.
to forget the person u realli love.
all the promises you made towards each other.
a love is just not the words you utter from ur mouth.
but the sincerity it comes from ur heart.
i shall keep the sincerity forever.
till.
it shines again.
insyallah.
=)
*insan sejati, tidak merebut cinta manusia.
tetapi, merebut kasih Illahi.
insan sejati, tidak merampas cinta manusia.
tetapi, menakluki cinta Illahi.
insan sejati akan kembalikan cinta manusia yg bukan miliknya.
tetapi, menggengam cinta Illahi yang tiada bandingannya.till then.
enuff said.-nani-
holdiing0nurhandstight
hello wello ppl.
hahahax.kk.
i back.
i dunnoe why.
but im in the mood of blogging.
klah.
wat actualli happened today?
erms.
kk.
monday nite was the amazing race all stars.
sooooooo sad that rob and amber were the last team.
and were eliminated.
after a all three straight came 1st to the pit stop.
haish.
sad leh.
hehehe.
they were the sweetest couples in the amazing race lohx!
haish.
nvm.
=P
tuesday, 13.03.2007
whakakkkax.
i dream abt erm.
sheesha.
hahax.
i was taking erms.
apple with mint.
whakakakax.
i finished up the whole bottle.
woah.
was i high!
hahax.
i love apple lah.
but my uncle says that grape with mint is much more nicer!
erms.
one day i shall try.
whakakax
klah.
erm. becoz of tat dream.
and another dream.
i was late.
bangun lambat giler lohx.
janji dgn budak2.
pukol 10.
skali.
nani yg bangun pukol 10.
hahax.
lawaks.
i rushed.
kluar umah pukol 10.30.
sampai pukol 11.30.
hahax.
rabakz lohx.
start of main bola lah.
kindda mendak.
yg datang gerls cumer.
erms.
4 org jek.
hahahx.
i was kindda mad.
kindda bingit too ar.
shall not elaborate on tat.
so.
to ease the kebingitan.
i decided to erms.
drink slurpee!
whakakakax.
boys join in.
by playing streetsoccer beside our court.
yussimonsibengs.
help me on my lappy.
but then bro.
erms.
masih samer ler.
haiya!
still got problem lah!
haiya.
vista really making me mad lohx.
su,din and faan.
came back from muis.
with great news!
whooo!!
erms.
i miss su loads.
hahax.
hugs her loads!!
whakakkaax.
she's sick after the GPA thinggy.
glad. tat she's getting better lohx!
hahax.
din came. and kutuk-ing my lappy.
so as hadi.
hahax.
su kater. bab dorang jealous!
hahax.
wohoo!!
whakakakkax.
merepeks lah korang nie.
but glad lah.
i got frens like you guys.
hahax.
lawaks!!!
klah.
lepas tukar baju semuer.
the boys.
go train on thier kompang.
hmms
boleh tahan ar
tapi masih berterabur lar.
hahax.
lawaks.
then me and raudha.
go main hujan.
whakakax.
tak ader kerja.
erms.
arep was sick.
erms...
shivering quite badly.
haish.
hope u get better soon k bro.
rest loads.
erms.
abt 6+ like tat.
send arep home.
by cab.
then.
i also went home by cab.
ngantok beb!
hahax.
rest well aiytes.
erm.
balik umah.
mummy cook dalcah for me.
whakakakx.
i love it lah.
but maser makan tu.
i was sneezing all the way.
haish.
bingitz beb!
and my temperature yesterday was.
erms.
38 degree?
whakakakax.
im having fever,
so most probably.
im not goin silat tomolo.
mummy pon tak kasi kluar.
argh!
coz.
im sick!
whakakakx.
wednesday was nothing lah.
just rest my nosey.
and exploring my new lappy!
whakakkakax.
loving it!
wohoo!!
currently.
im feeling okay.
nothing stress me out.
except for the miss shasha who keep on pissing me off!
haish.
bingitzz lohx.
erms.
and sha.
whoa.
im like so happy tat ure coming SP!
wohoo!
gonna have loads of fun with you lah.
hahhax.
cant wait gal.
to spent our tyme together like we used too.
haish.
i miss someone's hug badly lah.
erms.
argh!!!
wanna shout out load!
whakakakakax.
saturday.
too much things coming up on tat day.
can i go for all the things?
erms?
frens birthday this month.
erm.
yan,ama and sha!
whakakkakax.
shall celebrate everything in one day i guess!
whakakakkax.
klah.
im currently!
out of things to blog lah.
whakakkakax.
later at night.
i shall let go of my feelings.
once i arrange the words aiytes.
till then.
enuff said.
-nani-
holdiing0nurhandstight
hello ppl.
currently im like soo lazy to update.
coz.
im realli tired.
der!!!
why?
erm.
hahhaax.
klah
started off.
with the thursday nite not sleeping.
then.
kan petang tu.
nani gie madrasah al-irsyad.
tolong dorang for the pri 6 motivation camp.
wohooo..
so.
how does it go?
hahahx.
nani siap2 dalam pukol 2 gitu.
pack bag and all the craps.
goin to meet raudha and faan kt newton pukol 3.30pm.
kt newton.
then.
janji hadi.
pukol 2.20 ar.
hahahax.
so.
i was like calling my mum.
asking her some stuff.
and al last.
i end up crying.
while waiting for hadi to muncul under my blok.
i was talking to my mum.
n i cried.
coz.
same topic.
over and over again.
haish.
penat and bingit at the same time lah.
but im glad now.
everything stops.
insyallah.
meet my mum first b4 goin to newton.
talk to her for awhile.
then headed to newton to join hadi and raudha.
waited for faan till 3.45 like tat.
tapi he tak muncul2.
ruper nyer masih kt umah.
we went first.
then. otw.
terjumpe plak kawan hadi yang tadik we talk abt.
whakakaakax.
he's kindda sad lah.
but.
erms.
okay2 lah bro eh??
then.
sampai jek skolah.
we duduk skajab.
then join in the introduction of the camp ar.
hahax.
dgr kan ajek.
then.
got this two boys lah.
come to hadi.
abang. leh teman gie toilet tak.
hahax.
faham2 jek lah kies.
we went ahead with the games.
took pics with them.
they kecoh giler maut lah.
especialli my grp.
coz.
dorang semuer hyper active.
whakakakax.
my grp kena pecah into other grps
coz.
erm games tak cukop station.
so.
sad lah.
then i help nisa with her grp.
yup2.
hahax.
tat night.
erm.
me and raudha tot of joining the boys gie makan kt newton circle lah.
lapar beb!
haiyo.
tapi tak dikasi kluar.
so.
erm.
we waited for the boys to bring for us food.
sambil tu.
kiter bbual lah crapz.
hahax.
sambil makan kacang.
yummy!
hehehehe.
hadi and faan came back with roti john.
me and raudha share together.
then. the guys left us.
coz of menghormati protocol madrasah.
then.
me and raudha were asked to moved away from the bawah pokok nyer tempat duduk.
hahax.
we went to the kanteen.
the kanteen mcm mendak ar.
so we decided to sleep instead.
hahax.
next morning.
qiyam.
then.
games.
at abt 10.30 we end everything.
me got chocos.
hahax.
cert too.
whee..
overall.
i enjoy my tyme there.
jadik kakak dorang.
fun lah.
im glad.
didnt regret at all lohx!
thanks raudha!
=))
P.S.:: everyone especialli the other facis tot im one of the campers. coz im short! argh!! kk. then erm. they all the pri 6 semuer tinggi2 ar. ader yg ketot2 jugak ar.
but overall. im glad to be with them.
jadik kak nani lah.
kak nina lah.
macam2 namer dorang kasi!!
hahahax.
went home.
slept for abt 1 hr??
hahax.
then mummy ajak me.
go IT fair!
whakakakax.
went there with aims lah.
me.
laptop.
while mummy wants her zen creative neoon.
hahax
mummy drives.
so all the way.
she was worried tak ader car park.
hahax.
we didnt get lost at all!
was shocked!
hahax.
then.
erms.
parked car at pan pacific hotel!
hahax.
sampai jek kt suntec convention centre.
sesak seh!
haiyo.
but manage to go home happily with one lappy(acer) and one zen creative neoon!
wanted tp check out more stuffs.
but erm.
too packed ar.
so decided to go home.
im also tired lah.
three days.
with 4 hrs sleep.
argh!!
reached home.
erm.
did some stuff to new lappy.
then.
im off to bed!
too tired!
next day.
ader ugama lagik!
then
erm.
sunday.
hahax.
kk.
sunday.
after ugama.
me go teman mummy go belanje brg2 dapur.
then.
off i went for the friendly netball match.
who came down?
erms.
falina
nani
ama
syiks
hazimah
shakina
nabila
nabiha
hahax.
game was great lah.
walaupon kiter kalah.
der.
murni's team was like semua.
tinggi2.
haiyo.
penat tau kejar2 dorang.
but overall.
i enjoy myself ar.
went straight home with falina.
while the silat gals went for the silat championship.
nasif and hazimah went for the IT fair.
hahax.
last day mah.
hahahax.
slept ard erms.
2am.
so erm.
leh lah eh.
cukop2 tido!!
hahax.
monday.
actualli supposed to go for ice skating with mls peeps.
sklai.
cancle.
haiyo.
korang eh.
so nani aper lagik.
duduk umah.
tido lah puas2.
nie pon aru bangun tido petang!
hahax.
sedap sikit badan.
bsok ader bola lagik.
so kena store energy.
hehehe.
wed.
silat!
hahax.
gonna enjoy every minute of my life now.
hahahhax.
klah.
verrie2 the lazy to update animore.
later klau malam rajin.
ill update more kies.
hahax.
thanks guys.
muacks.
till then.
enuff said.
=))entry with pics.checkout my multiply.kiniotinani.multiply.com=P
holdiing0nurhandstight
hello ppl.
im now totally cooled after watever craps happened yesterday nite.
thanks.
ain,yus,raudha and ian.
for making me feel better and make me think.
whakakakax.
klah.
btol kater korang.
erm.
i shall just ignore all this craps.
hahax.
so yeah...
chears ppl!!
=P =))
but hey.
im still worried.
for FOC..
help me aiytes.
u noe.wat i noe.
haiyo.
glad to have u guys ar!
seriously.!!
thank guys.
=P
erm.
kk.
yesterday nite.
i watched. erm. VCD arep : Cinta.
verri2 the touching lah.
i cried part the.
"a little gal taught me, to love is to let go!"
argh.
touched deep into me.
then.
tgk dancefloor results.
argh.
not satisfy with the results lah.
den again.
all the best aiytes.
fantasticfour all the way kies.
hehehhee.
=P
then.
raudha msged me.
asked me.
whether nk tolong jadik faci/helper for.
mad. irsyad nyer orentation camp for pri 6.
to think again.
i cant go silat.
kaki dah tk leh tendang.
klau tendang. mesti nangis nyer.
then.
camp. tak rough sgt ar.
so yeah.
im goin for the camp.
hahax.
its like.
today.
(fri)4pm-(sat)10.30am
wohoo. im gonna love it.
yg pergi.
me,faan and raudha.
yus-si and hadi POWER. masih pending.
leceh lah kengkorangz!
hahahax.
then. erm.
tahu lah aper jadik maser nie.
darah up giler to the max ar.
but nvm.
i were still okie.
cumer.
tangisan sikit jek.
tak lah sampai meraung yer.
haisyo.
chat with ain,raudha and yus-si conferencing.
hahax.
yus-si got new name.
yussimonsibengs.
hahahx.
faham2 lah eh.
klau tk faham.
kengkorangz memang slow!
wahduh!!
leceh dokz.
then. chat ngan ian.
as usual.
he's being lame.
24 hrs.
but cant deny.
he did chear me up lar.
thanks froggy!!
=P
hahax.
since i cant sleep the whole night.
i watched two movies.
hindi-s.
hahhax!!
kal ho na ho.
and phil bil di hil hindustani.
hahahax.
kal ho na ho.
i cried da very much.
sampai my mum terbangun tido.
hahahax.
touching ler.
haiyo.
nani2.
hahax.
sampai lah subuh.
tak tido.
movie marathon lah nie.
hahax.
then.
skali.
nk solat.
ikan goldfish ku plak buat hal.
mater dier sakit.
kena infection.
got this one layer of disgusting white2 stuff.
at the eye.
so da scary ler.
then.
cepat2.
tukar dier kt smaller tank.
for rescue mission.
hahahax.
letak chlorine to neutralise the water.
then.
tunggu jab.
letak ubat dier.
two types.
one for fish headache.(hahahax.)
and another one for white spores.
hahax.
waiting for the whity tingy to peel off.
they leh pindah alek.
mummy planning to wash the tank.
this sunday?
argh!!
malas!
tapi tak per.
dari ikan2 kesayangan nani mati.
ill wash it!
whakakakakx.
=))
k. then.
makan breakfast ar.
aleh2.
chest pain seh.
cramp sakit giler.
nk breathe susah.
didnt tell my mum.
coz.
i noe wat it is.
i got the med alreadi at home also.
its stress also called as hypertension!
whaduh.
ubat dier eh.
besar2.
macam gula2 mentos.
whakakakakx.
tapi.
mentos much more nicer ler.
hahax.
rest for a while.
then.
bler can breathe like normal.
i went online.
chat ngan sha!
hahax.
she's being lame.
and yet.
we still talk abt the same stuff.
advise each other this and that.
laugh on some matters.
and then.
erm!
she left me!
pergie johore!!
whakakakkakax.
=P
thanks gal.
mummy called.
argh!
kak samnah.
ader ipod nano baru!
whaduh!
bingitz seh.
nvm.
coz.
yesterday.
me and mummy supposed to follow.
kak nura and kak samnah.
go IT fair kt suntec.
tapi.
kerna kaki ku yang tengah nk patah nie.
tak jadik.
so wen tadik.
mummy gie kerja.
mummy hear got loads of gd stuff. and cheap.
whkakakakx. so... she cant wait to go.
but too bad.
i cant follow.
klau tk.
nani dah borong dah bnyk benda.
hahahax.
but mummy wants to check out lappy for me.
she noes.
i need one sooo much!!
argh.
kies.
also.
web cam.
and ipod for me.
wud be prefered.
the one with video!
wohoo!
tgk lah.
aper yg nani akan dapat bler balik camp nanti kies.
cant wait to see wat she buying for me ar!!
argh!!!
klah.
totally.
mood percentage. erm.
85%
yg lagik 15% tu.
bab perut nani ngah sakit.
i think.
becoz.
i ate too much egg mayo sandwich tadik pagi.
with.
erm.
FnN orange the gassy ones.?
hahahax.
nasib ko lah nani.
but im like totally trying to gain fat!
why?
erm.
coz.
its worrying me.
i found out that i dont have enuff fat to help me.
in case of. *no more food/food too expensive*
*touch wood. touch wood*
wahduh.
my percentage fat is onli 10.2!
while. normal female shud have. erm. 19-25%
argh!
kies.
im gonna eat more chocos.!
whakakakakx.
=P
klah ppl.
mlm nie.
jgn carik nani on msn kies.
klau rindu.
katerkan rindu.
msged ler nani.
ader hp buat aper kan?
btw.
my msges kan.
naik tinggi giler.
macam nani nie.
ader guy plak.
banyk seh i send msg this month!
wahduh.
mintak2kan.
tk more than 10 bucks.
klau tk.
kenek marah ler.
haiyo...
hahahax.
=P
klah ppl.
im gonna miss you guys.
and do tags and reply me.
at blogspot and multiply respectively aiytes.
ayang korang semuer!
*cayer atau tidak.
nani miss silat.
tapi. aperkan daya.
tak mampu.
wahduh.
sakit nyer. tak tahan seh!
till the.
enuff said i guess!
toddles.
holdiing0nurhandstight
hello again ppl.
wohoo.
im back after a 4 days of MIA-in..
hahhax.
maap ler.
hehehhe.
klah.
monday was kindda nothing ar.
shud supposed be goin to ice skating with shakilla,falina and rashida.
but i end up at administrative office in my sec sch.
argh!
why?
erm.
coz of my pass years achivements.
they kindda lost it.
and dont have a copy of my cca card.
sedih eh.
haiyo.
nasib baik.
i still have mine.
so dorang photocopy alek lah.
hahahax.
then after dat.
stay at home.
relaxs.
sleep.
and then.
talk to my cousin.
she came to my house.
to erm.
accompany me?
der.
tuesday?
i was late. star karats bangat!
shud meet the gals at 11am. i reached at. erm. 12.30pm?
hahahax.
erm. morning was soccer.
than.
netball.
hahax.
was sooo damn freaking tired lar.
hurt my neck.
wen i fell down.
body first. neck was like patah-ing.
argh!
sakit seh.
balik?
tutoring my cousin.
argh.
she got maths and chem test the next day.
=P
whakakakakax. but half of the tyme.
i was like...
how u n saif? hahahhaax.
=P
received results.
at 12.36am.
hahax.
was so happy ar.
didnt expect it at all.
der!
coz.
i didnt study.
and erm.
i onli did a few qns for engineering maths.
was like did.
4qns out of 19qns.
was i mad?
yup.
i even cried after the paper.
infront of yus and ain.
i was so scared.
im gonna fail tat paper.
but i didnt.
io chem too!
hahahax.
so the unexpected!
wohoo!!
=))
happy happy me.
mummy gonna treat me!
wohoo.
swensens?
yup2.
hahhahax.
1 earthquake for me.
and yup2.
gonna get my adidas bag.
and the nike shoe.
lovin myself soo much.!
=P
wednesday?
erm.
again.
i was star karats.
hahax.
erm.
11am-12.30am aru sampai.
hahax.
played soccer with the boys.
all the gals.
me,adaw,azlin and falina. with faan and yan in our team.
against.
hadi,din and wak.
hahax.
we won.
hahax
10-8!!
buat malu lah korang.
tak sangka.
da gals power2.
hahax.
adaw score 2 gols.
me score 2 gols.
azlin score a hat-trick.
yan score 1 gols.
and faan score 2 gols.
im soo happy with the achivements.
go gals.
and falina.
ure a great defender!
hahax.
im soo cant wait.
to be with the full gals team.
mintak2kan satu hari.
semua dapat turon.
and we play a full game together.
wohoo.
gonna be sooo much fun2!!
after soccer.
some go and rest.
but with some energy left.
and even after.
kaki ku dah luka.
bab jatuh macam nangka busuk.
hahaax.
me,syiks,falina and raudha played netball.
whakakakakx.
syiks is my opponent.
while raudha is falina opponent.
(me and falina same team ler)
hahax.
syiks was like soo tall for me lar.
she was like blocking me the whole time.
susah seh nk dapatkan bola.
but.
hahax.
great game lah gals.
im lovin u gals.
more and more.
hahax!
muacks.
hehhee.
(im glad syiks turon!!=P)
then. erm. rest skejab kt mls.
then turon.
makan.
hahax.
then. erm.
rehat jab.
was thinking.
to go or not to go fo silat.
currently.
my right leg. aint at its optimum condition.
so yeah.
pass my tudung to su.
since she dont have a black tudong with her.
then.
stupid of me.
to go gym.
hahax.
went with raudha.
hahax.
tot of doin upper body workout.
but i end up.
doin legs too.
argh.
tat machine.
called me.
"commom nani. come here. use me. use me!"
argh.
soo da argh!!
so yeah.
did some legs workout.
and dang!
was its soo painful.
yang tadik biler ama urut.
makin sakit seh.
haish.
and there goes another dodolz.
she went to do.
the sit ups.!
argh!
my neck was like macam nk patah.
then.
lepas buat 20 sit ups.
makin sakit dok!
haish.
aper lah nasib ko nani.
erm
left early.
went out of the gym.
much more early than raudha.
dah tak tahan sakit!
hahahax.
then.
lepas tu.
tgk silat training.
sparring!
wahduh.
erm.
im soo gonna do tat one day.
erm.
n i also wanted to lepaskan geram kt Mr. V. yesterday.
but then again.
due to my leggy.
i cant.
haish..
currently.
right leg.
bengkak.
right knee.
luka.
left thigh.
muscle cramp!
hahahax.
neck.
waiting for it to patah.
hahax.
sakit dokz.!
so then.
alek umah makan.
watched CSI.
sleep!
tak tahan seh.
haish.
rest my neck on the pillow.
untuk org2 tua.
tat my mum bought for my grandpa.
hahax.
best ar tido.
but pagi.
end up.
batal tu kt kaki.
my neck rested on baby taz!
whakakakkax.
=P
wat dreams did i have for the past 3 nights?
same person.
onli.
different places and different situations.
bingit seh!
haish.
macam nk tampar jek tau muker nani nie.
ataupon.
jgn tido. selama2nyer.
so tak mimpi.
tk sakit hati.
sedangkan.
mimpi itu hanya permainan pikiran kan!
aiyooooooo!!!
P.s.:: bukan aku terasa. tapi bukakkah itu fact? klau malas nk bbual. jgn bbual. get a life lar gal. aku tak kacau.
dier plak kacau aku. bingitz. nvm. wat goes ard. comes ard. ingat tu! =P
im kind of totally breakdown in myself.
why.
im here trying to listen to everyone.
feelings and crapz.
on how they feel.
argh!
when. sometimes. i dont even noe wat i feel.
=P
pathetic me.
but then again. im kindda happy noe lar.
im here to listen to all ur craps.
but then.
wen i heard all this.
wen i tried to help to solve all this.
im the one who is breaking down.
i feel soo weak in me.
i sometimes.
remembered abt the past.
the past that hurts too much.
i sometimes. argh!
macam nk pekik tau!!
okies.
nani.
stooOp it with ur feelings.
kk.
erm.
firstly to sha.
gal. hold a grip of ur life.
u gotta be strong.
even if u and him were to be in the same sch.
same building.
u gotta have a grip.
noe ur objectives.
ure coming to SP.
to gain knowledge.
not becoz of him.
pls sha.
relaxz.
dont get too emotional too much aiytes.
im here if you need me.
im sure will.
since. erm.
im also experiencing the same thingy?
dont you think so?
so yeah.
just stay strong.
even wen u think ure weak.
=P
to raudha.
im glad.
ure realli doing well.
hope u continue on like this.
hope. u will.
i realli wish.
you to be the old you.
the one. that everyone loves to be with.
we will help each other up.
kies.
i promise.
=P
to ain.
im sorrie.
if tat nite. i sound so. the. argh.
cranky.
erm.
i was sooo hooked to my book lah gal.
and i tot u didnt get the main motive of me wanting to have the gals soccer team.
sorrie aiytes.
i didnt noe.
ure trying to help someone.
maap kan nani aiytes.
=P
to sulalalalla!
u noe wat i noe.
stay strong aiytes.
im here for you!
to listen to all ur crapz.
always.
argh!!
to ama..
hahahx.
gal.
im here!
for you.
hahax
*winks*
lame...
=P
to syiks.
hey gal.
stay strong aiytes.
dont ever give up.
a failure once.
doesnt mean.
u will get another failure soon.
tuhan tak akan mendera umatNya, dengan sekejamnya.
ader hikmah disebalik ini semua aiytes.
to katheleen/khadijah.
gal. we've known each other for like more than 8 yrs.
hope u stay happy with ur guy.
im here to listen to all ur crapz.
but.
to personal stuff.
i dont like to get too much involve.
im not realli the person who noes all this.
coz. u cud see.
wat actualli happen to mine.
besttie always aiytes.
=P
stay cute and pretty always.
and to da boys-ties.
erm.yus-si.
awk.
maapkan kiter kies.
u noe wat i noe.
hope.
it will kept btw us.
haish.
i dunnoe lah awk.
i feel so sad.
feel so erm.
bingit tau.
mcm nk publish jek my diaries.
kan best!
hahax.
tapikan.
erm.
no lah.
onlii.
erm.
md. rizman
md. rifki
aliyah maisarah
aliyah natasha
and the man i love to read it!
hahahx.
wohoo!!
nani being lame again!!
whakakakakakax!!
=P
to arep,din and hadi.
guys.
seriously.
u guys are the ones.
who made me laugh.
to make me forget all my worries.
to give me the advises.
wohhooooo.
im glad to have you guys as my bros lah.
hahax.
thanks alot!!
whee..
*muacks* korang!!
to faizul.
ure like far away from us for the tyme being.
hope.
u come back in one piece.
sihat sejahtera.
insyallah.
tke cre aiytes.
hahax.
*winks*
to erms.
im sorrie lah.
not tat i dont want to go out with you.
or watever crapz it is.
sorrie.
i cant.
im still not ready.
im still vunerable.
i want to be surrounded by frens onli.
frens onli.
maap kan nani aiytes.
=P
another thing.
tat had been goin thru my head this few days.
coz.
FO camp.
are getting closer and closer.
haish.
im worried.
tat i might break down.
i might get mood swings.
argh!
im just soo scared lah.
for myself.
argh..
for those.
who noes.
u noe.
wat im talking abt right.
guys.
help me aiytes.
im sure to bring loads of choco.
to make myself hyper active.
hahhahax.
im sure will.
=P
ive been getting too much responsibilty.
too much pressure.
seriously.
may it be duniawhi or ukhwahri.
i dunnoe.
cud i survive in the life.
tat i wanted to be in soo much?
haish.
if i cant make it.
forgive me aiytes.
if i can.
alhamdullilah.
peeps coming to SP. insyallah.
fahmi, zureen, sha.
the rest.
tak tahu lah.
hahahax.
welcome to SP ppl.
dia membisu
lidahku kelu
sedangkan masa dahulu
manjanya bagaikan
anak kecil
keinginannya selalu diturutkan
namun kesudahannya
aku yang merana
tangisan duka lara
jikaku tak turutkan
aku dimasamkan muka
aku dijerling bak musuh
namun.
patutkan balasan ini ku dapat?
"teman"?
keluhan hati tidak dapat dikandung.
keluhan rasa tidak dapat ditanggung.
bak merasa.
diri ini terlalu rapuh.
book review.
the latest book i read.
permata asmara.
verrie2. touching.
i cried.
must read ppl.
highly recommended to ppl.
who are in love and heartbroken.
finished it within one day.
start reading from.
4pm. till 12am.
hahax.
with eating, solating and all lah.
hahax.
cepat kan.
so hooked into it lar.
hahax.
total pages.
458
must read tau!!
cant wait for the friendly netball match this sunday.
players.
-falina
-nani
-ama
-sahkina
-syiks
-hazimah
-iffah
-su
-sufina
wohoo.
gonna be fun.
erm.
kaki yg sakit nie.
harap2. dah baik lah.
haish.
klau tak.
pakse jek lah main.
hahahx.
i love you guys all out there!
muacks x infinity power infinity!
and erm.
except you lah gal.
tak sangka eh.
masih bacer lagik my bloggy?
klau lah ku boleh tendang dirimu.
akan ku tendang sepenuh jiwa.
whakakakax.
thanks baby taz.
muacks.
klah.
till then.
enuff said.
-nani-
holdiing0nurhandstight
-`tagboard