evening was much more worst for me.
erms.
now.
my left eye.
arrr...
red.
im having sore eyes i guess.
argh!
its soo..
irritating lah.
sick.
erms.
=(
mummy reached home.
cook dinner for us.
then.
after mahgrib.
while eating.
i duscussed with her abt the job.
the cavana part time manager thinggy.
eventhough.
i filled up the form alreadi.
i still need to ask her permission.
and guess wat?
yup.
she didnt allow me.
she says tat.
i had enuff commitments alreadi.
argh!!
kindda true lah.
but err..
its money lah.
erms.
and peeps there lah.
they are just soo..
happening lohx.
haish.
so sad lah.
but its okay.
hope tat after poly.
i hope.
i still get the offer ar.
erms!!
i got the job becoz.
tom recommeneded me.
hahax.
he called me up.
and ask me.
whether am i up to it or not?
hahax.
its like.
i work there for only 3mths.
but im a all station worker lah.
sometimes.
i do the kitchen!
(ever cut my finger once)
i do the main counter.
sometimes. do the sausage counter.
(i hate tat station the most! coz i dont eat sausage! der!!)
sometimes. do the clean up.
and sometimes.
do the washing of dishes lah.
hahax.
so as to say.
i can do all the jobscope in cavana sembawang.
just name it!
whakakakkax.
i miss the cavana laksa lohx!
lol!!!
klah. so i guess.
i will not go on with the training.
tat will start next thursday!
whakakkax.
klah.
nvm.
perhaps another tyme.
no use. begging my mum.
coz. she told me. tats her final decision.
and i guess. she noes. wats best for me lah.
haish.
lagikpon.
my results. bukan nyer bagus sgt!
argh!!
kk.
concentrate on ur studies nani!!
erms!!
so yeah.
i watched dance floor.
erms. wasnt i supposed to go silat today?
wanted to. but i cant.
err!
hope tat the sore eyes wont get worst!
argh!!
im gonna cry lah.
klah.
dance floor.
i cud say that.
erms.
all 10 teams did well lah.
erms.
something caught my right eye!
hahax.
wan from the break force crew.
he's kindda cute right? dont u think so?
hahax.
then. amsyar from styles from beyond pon cute!!
hahax.
like the hairs!
whakakkakax
JDI and fantasticfour! argh... all cute lah.
hahax.
blueks!
love them loads!!
whakakkakax.
ouhyar.
there's this one phrase tat i think kindda kewl.
"outshine the sun you can!"
from the styles from beyond!
true lah guys.
u guys rocks my socks!!
wohoo!!
then. i watch.
danielle.
whakkakakax.
kewl.
and touching!
whakakkakax.
shamil and epin rocks lah!!
hahax.
great acting lah guys.!
wohooo!!
im seriously sick lah.
cannot tahan lohx.
head veri the heavy lah!!
argh!
wanna cry!!
sore eyes are very the itchy lah!!
argh!!!
sick sick sick!!
wth!!
cant sleep!!
will feel like crying!!
argh!!
i shall stop watever i crapp doin today.
i shall go on with the stuffs that ive been thinking these few days lah kies.
let be frankly in my post!
to my dear sis tat i shall not name you here.
u asked me.
can ur relationship last wen u are now feeling bored with the guy u are with now?
gal. seriously. i think ure crapping!
seriously.
u are being stupid lah!
the guy is there loving u soo much.
and now.
u are bored with him!
wth lah gal!!
be happy coz.
there are at least a guy. who still loves you.
who appreciate ur love!
love dont get bored.
if it comes from ur heart.
he may not noe how to entertain you.
he may not have tyme to meet u always.
and spent tyme with you.
you noe wat?
i think.
tats the best way.
for a relationship to last!
why?
emms.
the more you dont meet.
the lesser that both of you will quarrel and start to have second tots abt each other!
tat will last long.
i noe.
u will get bored.
and you will longed for him.
but dont you think.
from there.
you noe.
how much the person realli mean to you.
i noe.
its not boredom dear.
its just the feeling of loneliness.
when he's not there beside you.
but be glad.
that even when he's far away from you.
in his heart.
ure the princess.
ure the gal. he love.
gal. i noe. he didnt gave you a birthday present for your 18th birthday.
im realli sorrie to hear tat.
but be glad.
that u still have his love.
maybe.
he have his own reasons for not getting for you.
but.
i noe.
his love.
does not measure by the stuff he gets for you.
but the sincerity from the heart.
be glad.
that he loves you soooo much.
and have never tot of another relationship.
have never ever tot to be with another gal except you.
i believe tat both of you can last long.
promise me.
tat all the ups and downs u guys go thru.
will make ur relationship. a stronger one aiytes.
i love u sis.
just take cre.
=)
to the person whom this may concern you.
yeah.
wen we are sick.
we longed to have the person we love to be beside us.
to belai us.
but too bad.
they are not there wen we need them.
i understand ur feeling my dear fren.
but dont you think.
its goin too fast?
i think.
u shall not burden this in ur mind.
take things slow and steady.
it wud be a much better position for both of you.
i noe.
it come without you noticing it.
but.
u got to think abt the pros and cons.
but one thing.
just remember.
watever ur decision is.
make sure.
it will make you happy.
and be glad of.
dont think too much abt others feelings.
but just consider the effects of tat to others.
ill just pray for the best.
May Allah bless the decisions you make.
Insyallah.
im seriously.
argh!!
sick.
i guess.
ive been thinking too much.
tiring myself too much too.
havent been getting enuff rest this few days.
ive been doin too much things lah.
argh!!
feelings have been a roller coaster to me.
up and down. down and up.
argh!!
now i realli feel like goin to escape theme park!!
whakakakakau!!
erms.
i just need more tyme for myself lah.
argh.
competition this saturday.
and im not sure am i up to it or not.
if i were to back out last minute.
i shall ask nor atikah to replace me.
insyallah.
she will do us nur-ians proud.
im just not ready and prepare lah!
i shall blame myself too lah.
i didnt put it as a priority.
coz. erms. im not confident lah!!
argh!!!
kk.
not low self estemmmm
but just.
erms.
im a freako gal lah.
kk.
shall not elaborate on tat!
whakakkax.
kk.
but.
i shall try.
on fiday.
if its not gd.
i shall pass it to someone better kies!
can?
hmmms.
insyallah.
amin.
every steps i made
i noe.
Allah is there to protect me.
im not afraid.
coz i did nothing wrong.
i noe.
ill be happy once again.
i just got to grow thru all this with a strong heart.
love does not measure the physical stuffs u made.
the physically it affects you.
but how emotionally it hurts you.
of course.
all the physical things you've done is a maksiat.
but how do you overcome the urge of you doin it?
its difficult.
i noe.
wen a gerl and a guy are together.
its easy for you to say.
tat.
"biler aku ader matair. aku tak kan ....."
but then.
its different.
wen u actualli do have one.
i guess.
it stil hurts me.
and the feeling of guilt is still in me.
but im just wondering.
how can he forgets it soo easily?
erms.
=(
for a man tat ive love.
its not easy for me to get a replacement.
a love is soo precious.
tat you have to go thru hell.
to forget the person u realli love.
all the promises you made towards each other.
a love is just not the words you utter from ur mouth.
but the sincerity it comes from ur heart.
i shall keep the sincerity forever.
till.
it shines again.
insyallah.
=)
*insan sejati, tidak merebut cinta manusia.
tetapi, merebut kasih Illahi.
insan sejati, tidak merampas cinta manusia.
tetapi, menakluki cinta Illahi.
insan sejati akan kembalikan cinta manusia yg bukan miliknya.
tetapi, menggengam cinta Illahi yang tiada bandingannya.till then.
enuff said.-nani-
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