i just dunnoe why.
but suddenly.
things aint correct lah.
wen it suppose to be.
for example.
erms.
my pals relationship lah.
seriously.
im just confused.
abt wat my frens trully feels.
wat is there in them.
i noe its wrong for me to try and read ppls mind.
and try to figure up wat they trully feel in them lahx.
haish.
im realli confused lah.
seriously.
i dunnoe how to help them.
erms.
k.
as u guys noe.
my past relationship aint goin that well.
and erms.
i gave it all out.
try my best.
gave evrything he needs.
and try my best in making both sides happy.
but in the end.
im the one who's crumppled lah.
klah.
so.
for the fact that you guys are asking me.
how do u guys safe ur relationship.
seriously.
i donnt noe wat to say.
coz.
me myself.
i cant even safe my relationship lah.
lol!
klah.
seriously.
im confused.
as a pal.
i guess.
i shud have tried to make u feel better lah.
but im realli sorrie.
if i didnt.
why do i say so.
klah.
for the fact that i told you abt.
the meeting always.
will actualli make ur relationship much more worst.
its aint for all cases lah.
if both of you.
understands each other well enuff.
trust one another.
and didnt misuse the trust that ur partner gave you.
meeting often.
or not meeting often wont make a difference lah.
its how.
you guys approached it.
different ppl.
have different ways.
but too me.
follow ur heart.
gal.
giving him everything he wants.
all his deisres.
emrs.
i shall say.
its not the correct thinglah.
from experience.
it will just make you feel horrible.
wen he's no longer urs.
even though.
he may say.
trust him.
that he onli love you.
and no one can replace you.
for everything he wants from you.
he wud say he love you.
its all bull shit lah!
to get him all the things he wants.
i guess.
he's just trying to finish up ur money lah or just.
plainly taking advantage of you lohx!
ARGH!
im just stress lah.
talking abt all this!
haiyo...
klah.
erms.
about the touching2 part eh.
hahax..
im not at it gd enuff.
coz.
me sendiri lemah wen it comes to tat lah.
u cant imagine lah.
so yeah.
wen having the person you love beside you.
you will tend to show him how much u love him.
by such ways of kissing and holding hands.
by such ways of hugging and etc. etc.
im no one here to touch on tat.
forgive me.
so. u called me.
right after i left my frens to take 178.
which i was like kindda lost findin the busstop.
erms.
im kindda glad.
u called at the right tyme.
such tat.
wen im alone.
so..
there you are crying while talking at me.
erms.
i noe how it feels lah kies.
seriously.
i wud say.
get a grip even though u cant.
kies.
just try your best.
if u feel like taking painkiller.
just do.
as long.
dont overdose urself!
hahax. if not.
u shall let the history repeats itself.
by vomitting dry blood.
in the middle of the night!
lolX!!
klah gal.
just take care.
i hope.
the hugs i gave you just now.
and the hot choco i treat u.
shall make u better.
and make you cool down lah kies.
i dont feel like talking to you animore on this matter.
coz.
i noe.
its gonna hurt you lah.
past right!
hahax.
tke cre kies.
just stay strong.
i noe.
your much much more stronger than me lah.
but im sorrie.
i cant help saving ur relatinship.
coz.
i guess he made up his mind.
kindda wth lah.
but wat to do.
guys are guys.
but not all guys are evil lah.
one day.
shall he realise his mistake.
insyallah.
he'll return.
and shall appreciate you more.
insyallah.
we'll doa for the best kies.
amin.
whakakakax.
im pissed.
totally pissed today!
whakakakkakax.
shall start of with morning.
as usual.
i slept late.
5am to be sharp
raudha woke me up ard 8.30.
but i decided to sleep again.
hahax.
terbabas lah sampai pukol 9.30.
whakakax.
so.
erms.
not late for the meeting abt the tarian thinggy.
coz.
org yg chair meeting lambat jugak.
hahahax.
meeting went well lah.
tak ader cat fight or wat craps lah.
hahax.
everyone.
came to a point of agreement.
and both sides were happy lah.
alhamdullilah.
amin.
after that boys.
were off to thier kompang thinggy.
then.
me,arep,su and raudha.
makan kt FC3.
erms.
tak kecoh.
tak seriah maner lah.
lepas tu.
duduk2 kt mls sekajab b4 moving off to IMM.
the motive of me wanting to go to IMM is to find presents.
for my pals lah.
hahax.
tapi niat tak kesampaian!
whaduh!
klah.
otw balik tu.
kat call me.
crying.
and decided to meet her.
tot she need some hugs.
and someone to comfort lah.
seeing her now eh.
haish.
i just wish.
both of us.
sticks with our pendirian not to have any guy.
until finish poly.
we made tat agreement like.
in pri 6.
hahax.
lawaks ler.
seeing her.
der!
i feel like crying too.!!
whakakakax.
sakit tu eh.
hanya Allah sahaja lah yang tahu.
Insyallah.
semua ini akan ada hikmah.
i shall just wait and see.
kadang2 tu.
tak sabar jugak lah.
tot of doin wat ive been thinkin of doin.
kindda evil!!
whakakakkax.
but too bad.
im still nani.
im not as bad to make someone cry for 1 mth plus straight!!
klah.
otw nk balik tu.
kan 178 belakang lib.
(after calling din)!
whakakax.
so tot of disturbing ian kerja kt macD at JE!
hahax.
tapi bler call.
dier kater he tak kerja!
aper jek.
tak fun ler!!
hehe.
aru jek nk kacau.
hahax.
fren.
ure evil froggy with lots of craps!!
hahax!!
=))
sampai umah abt 8+!!!
argh!!
coz.
bbbual ngan kat kt lib.
bought two hot chocos!!
whakakax.
im loving every slip of it lah!
hahax.
sampai umah.
makan nasi.
mummy cook sambal tumis udang!!
whakakakkax.
i love it soo much ler!!
hahax.
der my fav.
is home cooked sambal tumis udang and mee goreng basah.
klau makan kt luar. i lioke mee hong kong!!
whakakkax.
my fav. foodies.
hehehhe.
muacks.
so yeah.
faizul invite all of us to his.
makan2 kt umah him. after his returning.
insyallah.
i shall try to make it lah.
bnyk benda seh this sat!
i shall die!
whakakkakax.
then.
got this msg.
tat kindda start me pissing off lah!
whakkakax.
i guess.
im no one impt lah.
as i say.
kata2 indah hanya kepalsuan semata-mata.
keindahan yang engkau lihat.
kerna kasih sayang.
kata dilupakan!
wth.
i shall ignore everything.
till u utd wat i really feel inside me.
tot u did.
coz u say u did.
i guess you dont.
shall go the way u want it to be.
shall follow.
the beat you are playing.
=))
my mood are goin hire wire.
shall stop now.
if not.
i will talk more rubbish.
diari. walauweh.
moving on to next book alreadi seh!
argh.
tat will be like my 17th!
argh.
wat craps did you write nani??
argh!!
guilt still running.
and the same question still poundering.
err!
i shall bring it up one day to the whole world.
shall dey hear my cries.
till then.
enuff said.
holdiing0nurhandstight
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